Save Me

thirty nine

"Get out! Please, just leave me alone!" I yell and open the door.

They look hesitant but then their eyes fill with defeat and walk out of my room.

As the door closes, I run to my bathroom and grab my blade from the drawer and began to take the pain away.

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[Olivia's POV]

I woke up with a headache and the feeling of guilt. I laid with my dog for a little bit, rubbing her ears while I contemplated whether going to school was worth it or not.

I finally got out of bed because I knew I couldn't fall behind in my school work. I wore a black crop top with a big vintage flannel that Anthony gave me and a pair of black high waisted skinny jeans. I threw on my white high top converse. I kept my makeup simple, just my mascara and eyebrows.

I finished getting ready and went downstairs with my dog to feed her, I wasn't hungry. When we went into the kitchen I found Lin sitting on the table waiting for me.

"Good morning, sweetheart." He said.

"Hey," I say, looking away from him. "Lin.. I'm so sorry, I don't know what's going on with me. Please don't hate me."

"Olivia.. I would never hate you. I want to help you but I really don't know how. I think you need to see a therapist." He said quietly.

"No! I-I'm fine, I know I have been acting strange but it's normal. All teenagers do this." I say.

"I know that teenagers party and drink but you don't do it for fun, it's like drinking is your only way out of a bad situation." He says. "Look I will give you another chance but if it gets like last night again I will have no other choice than to take you to see someone."

I hug him tightly, he wraps his arms around me.

"You know that I love you, right?" He says into my ear.

I tense up sharply. I haven't been told I love you since my parents died. I have never told anyone I love them except for my family. I want to say it back to him, because Lin has become like my father, but I just can't.

"I know.." I whisper, pulling from his grasp.

"No more of that Lexi girl, ok? She's a bad influence on you." He says.

"Ok.." I say. I am disappointed but I know that Lin is doing this because he cares about me. I wonder what he would do if he knew about my scars.. I can't tell him, he would probably freak out and lock me in some nut house.

"I have to go to school, Daveed's probably here already." I say, Daveed was giving me a ride today.

"Have a good day, Olivia." He smiles and waves as I walk out of the kitchen. "Oh! Don't you want breakfast?"

"Not hungry!" I yell as I walk through the door.

I walk through the theater and then out the stage door and hop into Daveed's car.

"Good morning, sunshine." He greets me as I sit in the front seat.

"Morning, Daveed." I say, buckling my seatbelt.