Kenny parted from Tim just to give him a couple days he was hoping Tim would really sit through and talk with him again soon he was still hoping that Tim would come home and honestly walk back through that front door and call it 'home' again. Crashing back at his mama's he had been nursing a beer sitting out on the front porch wondering when all this would stop killing him he couldn't walk away without a fight he still wasn't going to just divorce Tim like that, Karen found her son on the front porch with a beer she sat beside him listening to her son breathe "I can't just do this we made a vow.. " Kenny began he hadn't cried since the night Tim took off after the topic of divorce came up they had fought so much when they were home and nothing had worked. "Kenneth you two were having problems and i can assure you now that neither one of you are really going to get over each other i know this is hard on you and Tim.. Oh, i bet it's hard on him too but son you've gotta understand that when two people drift away and need space and time apart all you can really do is pray to the lord" Karen spoke wrapping her arm around her baby's shoulder rubbing it gently she had seen many times the way Tim had made the man happy and it killed her to know now her son was still hurting still wishing and waiting for something to happen. "I know mom, but honestly i can't see myself without him we have had twenty three years together and a marriage.. I can't just throw everythin' away" Kenny sighed there would ne no peace and no reliife untill Tim decided what he was doing Tim was his world he waited for a phone call anything they could pick up again, "I know baby boy.. Sometimes's the hardest thing is lettin' go of someone who might no be over you but you can't force him to come back to you if the timing is right the good lord will do his magic and bring him home but, if it's meant to be or not we can't force it"Karen softly said kissing her son's face wanting to make her son's pain go away.
Kenny ended up getting drunk that night, a local bar where he had gone out many times when he became legal to get inside. Left right and center he was hitting on a few men and a few women drunk enough that a one night stand could happen he needed not think. The drunker he got the more louder and obnixous he was he had a couple women on his arm he didn't really care all that much, by Three am he had gone home with a man he knew from high school. Chris been just as drunk as Kenny he was Chris had always been intouch with Kenny always even since Kenny's career took off in Nashville "fuckin' shut up and love me" was All Kenny could say when thy got in stumbling making out. It felt increidbly wrong but at the same time he needed this.
Waking up the next afternoon Chris had left leaving him a note, all he could think how horrible he was by having a one night stand with Chris because his heart was still remaining with Tim. "I'm praying for a miracle.." He softly spoke to himself pulling his hungover self out of bed he found his phone in the pocket of his jeans, no text from Tim nothing. Shooting him a text he was feeling doubtful alot of doubt that coming home was the worst thing he could do Tim and him had sex a couple times but it seemed to be going no where, it had seemed Tim moved on and was doing the best he could.
He ate breakfast dressed in a t shirt and shorts after swallowing two asprins, his mother had left him so pancakes he ate those with bacon feeling like death he scrolled through his iphone he hadn't replied to messages from other peers but he sent one to Tim. "I'm Praying for a miracle for you to walk back through that door.. we can't avoid eachother and then see one another and have good pure sex.." Kenny texted god he felt so lonely without him their marriage had been something he had been waiting for for a long time, a long , long time. Kenny went back to bed that afternoon and slept sleeping was the best resort to do he was growing desperate having sex with strangers couldn't cut he didn't even know what to do anymore the sound of his cell buzzing on his night stand he had covered his head groaning when the call from Gary Allan came through Gary was one of Tim's best friends in the world and it pained him to know that Tim may have moved on and needed to know to deal with his life. He sighed picking up the phone "About fucking time you picked up!" Gary laughed Kenny didn't really talk to Gary all that much anymore none of the peers really. "what'd ya' want?" Kenny asked he wasn't too happy all he wanted to do was die to drink himself stupid "Checkin' up.. i heard you were with Tim tryin' to work shit out.. you need a friend?" the California native asked on the other end of the line sounding like he had already broken the neck of the Jamison wiskey "can I come to Hendersonville?" was all Kenny could reply.
Kenny arrived at Gary's approximately three hours later greeted by Gary's dogs and Maggie "Uncle Kenny!" she laughed at thirty she still called Kenny her uncle they all did and they were just like their old man it amazed him how much she was like her father how spitting image personality wise she was but she wasn't as wild. "Hey Kiddo!" he laughed after petting Lucy and Xora it made him miss pancho "where's your old man? is he drunk yet?" he asked laughing when he hugged her tightly as she nodded pulling back tying her hair back from her face "yep.. he's out the back on the lake been there since dinner" she replied watching the man who looked so sad, sad was not the word Kenny would have used anyway more like lonely, depressed and missing Tim "Well i'll go join him he got rum?" he laughed following Maggie as she lead him through the house laughing "he'll have anythin' in the cellar stocked" she laughed once Mags left them to be he stepped out the back on the porch where Gary was drinking alone "Old man on the Jamison and champagne?" Kenny laughed as Gary sat his glass down " about fuckin' time!" the other man replied laughing approaching him hugging him tightly laughing "sorry i haven't got any rum, sit down .." Gary had made the light of a situation sitting out on the porch with a glass of wine he hadn't laughed like he had in a long time Gary was just natrually funny he was laughing till it hurt, for a minute the world didn't revolve around Tim just for two minutes Gary made it seem like it was eternity that he had been mending his broken heart. "man" Gary spoke gently placing a hand on his friend's shoulder speaking the truth "You need to write, write listen to I think i've had enough hell, I was in a place at the time with a girlfriend at the time and i just wrote and kept my head writing he'll come back" he assured him gently slapping his shoulder.
"I'd do any thing for us" Kenny wrote he did exactly what Gary said to do when he returned back to the house the photographs were still around at his mothers house he was trying to wrap his mind around the fact he was once laying in bed laughing with Tim on their wedding night. Here he was having to accept the fact divorce was in play and now there was no hope.. none at all.
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Not over you, yet.
FanfictionTwo years ago Kenny Chesney and Tim McGraw divorced after so many years of marriage and becoming country music's first celeberty homosexual couple im country music. Now that two years have passed and the divorced as been in the picture Kenny isn't w...