josh's POV
i looked out the window and saw mark kissing her i felt so broken i left the window and went to my room and layed on the bed and goner lyrics played trough my head "im a goner somebody catch my breath...im a goner somebody catch my breath i wanna be known by you..i wanna be known by you" i heard aqua's voice in the distance
"josh?" i desided to keep quiet but then she walked in
"are you ok" she sad down on the edge of the bed looking at me
"im fine" that was the first time i ever lied to aqua i felt so bad i felt like crying but i held the tears back
"ok just making sure" she layed down next to me and she got another text im guessing it might be mark
"ugh its mark" yep i was right she took out her phone i saw what they said
mark:im sorry about kissing you
aqua: you should be and let me tell you something im dating..
thats all i saw but hopefully she said me
____skip in time omg :o
me and aqua desided to just cuddle in bed and watch the walking dead she fell asleep after 3 episodes but i could not sleep i was just to destracted about what mark did to her. i grabed the remote and turned off the tv and went to sleep
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i looked down at her lifeless body her eyes wide open and blood all over her mouth
"you, you let her die you did not save her you did not bother to help her you just ket her die in you're arms" i looked behind me and saw a demon that looked just like me tears rolled down my face and onto the ground. when they hit the ground the set on fure burning this house down and burning my skin i was trapped in a circle of fire and a cloud of back smoke
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"AQUA!" i got up and saw i was in bed and aqua was right next to me i saw that she was breathing so i got up trying to not sqeak the bed and went to the bathroom and threw some water on my face
"it was just a dream it was not real" i keeped on repeting that and the lyrics of goner played through my head again "dont let me be gone" "it was not real" "dont let me be gone" "it was just a dream" "dont let me be gone" i sighed and fell back on the wall hitting my back and sliding to the ground "DONT LET ME BE" i walked out and saw that aqua was awake
"josh are you ok i heard you scream my name" she looked at me i can tell that she was really tired still
"just a bad dream dont worry" i layed back on the bed "go back to sleep"
"ok josh i just want to know your ok" she put her head on my chest and her breathing pattern changed
"she must have breathing problems" i whispered to myself
i grabed my phone and texted tyler
josh: hey can you cone over and bring jenna cause once aqua wakes up shes going to qeustion why im being distant
tyler: sure man let me text jenna
josh: thanks
i put my phone down and put my arm around aqua she seems so peacfull. i heard i know on the door so i carefully got up and opened the door
"hey jenna hey tyler" i smiled at both of them letting them in
"hey man so whats bothing ya?" tyler and i did our handshake like aways
"i had a dream and jenna aqua is in my room tell me when she wakes up"
"ok josh" jenna started to walk to our room
"what kind of dream josh" we both sat down at the table
"well it was a nightmare about aqua snd my demons" i sighed and looked down
"tell me bout it"
i sighed "this is all i remember is the i was hold aqua's lifless body in my arms and this demon that looked like me was saying "you you made her die you did not save her you did not help her" and this my tears started to turn into when the hit the ground and yea"
"whoa thats deep do you want are company if this happens again?"
"yea" i smiled and he smiled back
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idk what this was but irl i do have ome breathing problem or my lungs just dont like to work what ever
anyway thx for reading ^.^
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RomanceCast: josh,tyler,aqua,max,mark and mecena Aqua meet this boy named josh (yes from tøp) and she falls in love with him but she does not know these feelings and she does not know he is in the band twenty one pilots.josh meets aqua at his record store...
