Blessing
"Go grab your sisters diaper bag for me RJ" rubbing my round belly I let out a sigh as I used my hand to push off my bed.
Rueben was now four and looked just like his father. I now had a baby girl named Ruby and was 4 months pregnant with another baby by Rakim but we aren't together.
Rakim found me before I could find him I remember the day like it was nothing RJ already had his bags packed and we were headed to the door only to open it and be faced with an angry Rakim.
"Junior go to your room for momma please" he didn't ask questions as he sat his Spider-Man bag down and ran off to his room closing it behind him.
"Rakim I was just-"
"About ta' come find me?"
"Yea" his face held a scold as my mouth grew dry and he towered over me.
Brushing passed me I closed the door behind him locking it before turning around to see him already staring at me his eyes traveling up the sides of my body making heat rise to my face.
Watching as he stepped closer to me I backed away until my back hit the door.
"I should kill you" wrapping his hands around my neck I placed my hands over his wrist trying to pull his hands from around me.
"Rocky no" my voice cracked and a tear slid down my face as his body relaxed and he placed his lips on mine.
"I'm so sorry" wrapping my arms around his neck I tried to stop the tears that rolled down my cheeks.
The kiss was hot and sweaty and lead to me having Ruby.
After the sex I explained to Rakim why I did it while we showered together and when we walked to Junior's room he was already sleep which lead to Rakim having to wait and meet him in the morning.
Junior was quiet but I could see the excitement in his eyes as him and his father bonded.
Now that Junior was 4 we agreed to keep him medicated for right now and he has only had a few episodes all though his father seems to have them a lot since our split.
We tried dating again but that only lead to trust issues from the both of us one night we got in to a huge physical altercation and he cheated on me and was now engaged to the same girl he cheated with.
That didn't stop him from getting me pregnant again or giving me oral sex from time to time, and from time to time I meant every time he stopped by.
Did I mention the girl he cheated with was Layla, the one who used to work with him. She was swallowing injections like they were vitamins she was a pretty girl but was damaging her body the kids hated her something about her being to bossy.
"Alright Momma's let's get ready to go to your fathers." Reaching her arms up for me I picked her up smoothing the edges of her hair as she sucked her pacifier.
Hosting her on my hip I grabbed my purse phone and keys walking out my room.
"Alright Junior are you ready to go to your fathers?" Running out Rubys room with her diaper bag and his backpack on he nodded his head holding a grin as he reached his hand out for me to grab.
Walking up to him I turned off all the lights before grabbing his hand and walking out the front door locking it behind me.
The fact that I was sleeping with a man that was engaged only bothered me when I was the one left a lone at night I felt like a side chick and in away I was but I was the one who was keeping me and Rakim separated.
He always told me all I had to do was say the words and we would be back together and I would be the one he was engaged with but seeing him with her made me think I deserved better than him.
Opening up my car door I sat Ruby in her car seat buckling her in then going to Junior's side and doing the same.
Making sure they were safe in side I got in the car putting my seatbelt on as starting the car up turning on the radio.
Junior always fell a sleep in the car Ruby was my rider staying up with me making small conversation because like me she was shy and quiet.
Ruby was my twin but I could tell she would be gaining one of her fathers crazy traits I was just waiting to find out which one it was.
I hated Rakim for his strong jeans but at least my kids were cute.
"You hungry mommas?" Nodding her had she tapped her hand to the music and I decided to stop at McDonald's on the way to Rakims.
Layla was 2 years older than me and working on being a rapper or something in the music industry I'm not sure.
She hated me along with anyone Rakim had a fling with, I don't know why though I don't want Rakim he cheated on me with her and was now cheating on her with me.
I didn't want her around my kids but I didn't have a choice she was always under dressed and that was my biggest complaint. I didn't want my kids seeing their step mother half naked.
Mentally rolling my eyes at the thought of it I decided not to stress the subject.
Mona and Tyson had recently got married in Jamaica like he promised her and it was so beautiful I was happy for my sister. The triplets were with her mom while they finished off their honeymoon in Hawaii.
Farrah and Mike actually had a son named after Mike of course they were still together and actually made things official by moving in together there new house was built from the ground up with 7 bedrooms all rooms Mike said would be filled with kids.
Kenji and Chris have a daughter and a son there daughter was three and her name was Christina and there son was 1 and his name was Chris or CJ. Chris was still in the NFL and even with kids Kenji managed to be at every game home or away there was no doubt in my mind that they wouldn't be getting married soon.
Then there was me I managed to have three kids with a deranged lunatic who was engaged to the same women he cheated on me with countless times.
Some might say I was confused but I knew I was still young and lost..
