2am Poems

Do you Miss Me?

Do you even miss me?

Because I miss you

We haven't seen each other in ten years,

Since we were just little kids,

But you meant the world to me for a long time.

You still do.

I'm always looking for you,

Even though I know I'll never find you.

I always feel sick whenever I think 

I've probably passed you in the street several times

But we no longer recognise each other.

I've messaged your brother a few times over the years,

But he's never messaged me back. 

I know you're not thinking of me

Like I'm thinking of you.

I just want to know how you turned out.

I want to know about you.

It keeps me up at night,

When I remember why we were pulled apart

I was your only friend at the time

And you were mine.

I was so damn lonely,

So damn lonely,

I never thought how you felt.

I know your parents broke up,

And I'm sorry I wasn't there for you.

You were goofy and clingy,

But now I understand.

And I would give anything,

Anything,

To go bad in time and give you one last hug

And to say goodbye.

Because we never said goodbye,

And that breaks my heart.

Every time I look back and think of you,

That breaks my heart.

So this is dedicated to you,

Mathew,

I miss you.