2am Poems

Dedicated to Daniel

It's been about four years since we last spoke.

Last time I saw you was at a Dog Show.

Your Mum had dragged you along to see me.

You didn't speak to me,

You didn't even look me in the eye.

Before that I hadn't seen you for two years.

We had planned to meet up for

Those New Years' Eve nights.

You didn't show.

You even didn't message me.

Instead I had to spend my nights with your brother.

Your little brother was more decent than you.

We had been two peas in a pod

You were in the year above

Popular and fun

And I was in the year below

I had two other friends,

Matt and Harvey

I treated you like my role-model

I wanted to be like you.

But now I look at how you treated me,

And how I treated Mathew,

And I wish I didn't spend a moment on you.

I wish I spend it with Mathew.

Because he loved me.

You didn't.

I'm always reminded about how close we were.

I remember the time we kissed.

You always treated me like I was an equal

Although I was younger and dorky,

Unpopular and I cried a lot,

I still meant a lot to you.

But then you aged without me.

I moved away.

I watched you grow up from a distance,

Only seeing you on New Years' Eve.

I saw the man you became.

This is dedicated to you Daniel.

The boy who could've gone pro,

The boy who was smart and sensible

And cool.

But you changed.

I don't know you now, 

And I'm glad about that.

I don't want to know the man you've become.

And I'm sorry I couldn't have stayed with you.

And grown up with you.

Because you could still be playing football

And I could've had a best-friend.

And we could've been great.

I'm glad I didn't get to see the man you've become.

I'm done with you.

I'm done.