2am Poems

I miss you.

I can't sleep 

I miss you

I'll diss you because you were a jerk

But you're always on my mind.

I remember how you would always beat me at football

And I'd be better than you at drawing.

I was your goalie

And you were my pencil sharpener.

You'd sit by the bathroom door,

Stopping your little brother walking in and annoying us

While we drew.

I'd always back you up when I could 

And I knew you couldn't stand it when I cried.

Not because I was annoying

But because it made you sad.

I knew that's why you never cried in front of me.

I saw you cry twice.

And it broke my heart.

You loved me more than anything

And I loved you

But something changed.

I moved away.

And you stopped talking to me when I saw you.

We'd talk superficial.

Your Mum told my Mum that,

You quit footy.

I cried that night.

You were the best football player I'd ever seen,

And you gave it up and didn't bother to 

Bring it up.

I remember the day you had a day off school.

And you turned up to my nursery

Instead of spending the day having fun

Or sleeping in

You were the 'Cool Guy'

And they all swooned over you.

I made my way through the crowd.

And you made me confident

You made me cool.

I moved to primary,

And you took an interest in me.

You didn't care if I made you unpopular

You'd let me play with you.

I remember when two girls bullied me.

I never told you because I didn't want you to worry.

I was already the weaker half of our friendship,

You gave,

I took.

I'm sorry.

I have you on Facebook.

We haven't talked since 2012.

I can message you now.

But what would we talk about?

I no longer know you.

And you no longer know me.