What is love? [laurmau ff] ✔️

Falling Apart [26]

=Laurance=

Connor Zvahl.

"This isn't right.." I say.

"Laurance.. Is he your.."

I nodded, tears streaming down my face.

"Am I able to see him?" I ask.

the doctor nodded, showing me his room.

I opened the door, taking a breath.  There has to be some explanation to this.

"D-dad?" I rasp.

"L-Laurance?" He asks weakly.

"Dad... W-What did you do?"

"I-I didn't mean to hit anyone, I just... I just needed some time to myself."

"Do you even know w-who you hit?" 

he shook his head.

"You hit me and my girlfriend." I say, anger creeping up on me.

"W-What?" 

"Were you drunk?" I ask.

"Laurance-" 

"Did you drink before driving." I say, more firm.

He hung his head in shame before he nodded.

I shook a breath as I ran my fingers through my hair. 

I broke into a sob, "Dad, W-Why?"

"Y-You left us, Mom should be the one drinking, not you!" I shout.  "She's my everything! The one thing that makes me truly happy... Why would you take that away from me?" I ask.

"Laurnace, I'm so, so sorry." He said, breaking into a sob.

I didn't say anything, I just left.

•••

She's in a coma.

For Irene knows how long.

"Can I see her yet?" I ask.

Silvana shakes her head.  "Strictly family only.  I'm sorry." 

I only replied with a simple 'oh' before going into a phase of silence.

"The doctors say that she has a pretty high chance of waking up... She's breathing on her own... But chances of amnesia are high." 

I sighed, another tear spilling out of my eye.

"Go home, Laurance... I'll update you if there are any changes." she said, hugging me.  I nod.

"C-Can you give me a ride home?" I ask.

She gave a weak smile and nodded, hurrying me out off the hospital.

•••

"Laurance!" My mom says, crowding me into a hug.

"I'm so glad you're okay..." she whispers.

"Laurance," Cadenza pauses.  "H-How is Aphmau?" 

"Sh-she's in a c-coma.." I say before breaking into sob.

"I'm so sorry." Mom says, wiping a tear.

"I have worse news.." I say.

"What could be more worse than you getting into a car accident?" 

"The person who hit us.." I look down, shifting my feet.

"It was Dad.." I say.

She stayed silent, not knowing what to say.

"He was drunk and he hit us, not knowing that it was me and her and-" I didn't have the power to finish my sentence.

•••

I never realized how sucky being alone is until I'm lying on my bed, not wanting anything to do with life anymore.

I can't get her out of my mind.  I'm just always wishing over and over that it would be me in that hospital bed instead of her.

What did she do to deserve all of this bad happen to her? All she ever did was love and change me for the better.  

Why do the worst things happen to the best people? It's like I'm missing another half of me.  Like I'm falling apart.

Maybe I just deserved this.

Maybe I deserved to get my happiness to be taken away from me.  Maybe this was my fault.

Maybe fate is taking it's toll on me.