chubby || p.c.y

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i looked in the mirror, and i felt disgusted.

my cheeks are so big, and my stomach too. my thighs are too big, everything about me is so...

chubby.

and i hate it.

i hate the judgement i receive for being larger than all the other girls.

i hate the way people look at me like i'm some wild elephant.

and i hate the way my own family treats me.

my mom and dad always ask me why i can't be as pretty as my older sister, rain.

but i feel the same.

i would kill to be as pretty as her.

she's got a nice, slim figure. her face isn't big, her stomach isn't big. nothing is big. she's absolutely gorgeous and i envy her.

i also envy the fact that she's dating park chanyeol, the guy i've had the biggest crush on since i was a freshman.

now i'm a junior, and both rain and chanyeol are seniors, and neither of them pay me much attention.

not that i expect them to. the only attention i get is when people call me gross, or fat, or tell me to die.

and i try not to let the stuff get to me.

but when you literally have no friends and no one to talk to, it gets hard.

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