My psychosis is my living Hell
But it's my Hell that's always there for me
Of course it's bad and makes me sad
But it's something I can always see
It's something that brings me stability
Even when it strips that away
In every other aspect possible
"Consistent" is a better way to say
It's one of the most exhausting things
And terrifying to say the least
It's not that I would wish it back
That merciless persistent beast
But there's something about my psychosis
That I feel like is meant to be there
No matter the fear, the pain, the fatigue
No matter how much it's unfair
Having psychosis is being trapped
In a particular state of mind
That is almost completely impossible to break
Many will come to find
Doctors think that giving me pills
Will change the way I am
This medication just makes me foggy
Feeling like a piece of ham
Everything I already felt
Is still somewhere deep down
It's just that now I'm far too relaxed
And in my thoughts, I much less drown
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Blue Armbands
PoetryBlue Armbands is a collection of poems themed around the struggles of a mentally ill person.