It Started With Hello ⇒ Camren

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Hi loves.

I was debating on posting this the entire day and I've decided that I need to.

Let me start with this: yes, I will be continuing this book. Don't worry. I'm gonna keep updating this book because it helps me cope with a lot of different things.

Now on to the important part: Camila. Camila, Camila. I have no words. I knew she was going to leave, ya know? I feel like in one way or another, we all knew she'd be the first to go. And I feel like we all prepared ourselves in different ways. Some of us lived in the moment trying not to think about it, some of us mourned all the way up until it finally happened. For me, I joked about it a lot. I love OT5. One of the biggest OT5 stans out there. But I'd joke about it to try and put off the reality of it happening and now that it has, all I've been doing is crying.

I want you guys to know that whatever you're feeling is valid. You're allowed to feel sad. You're allowed to feel happy. You're allowed to believe what you want to believe. But no matter what, it's not okay to throw hate at Camila. You can be angry, but who knows what's actually real, ya know?

Anyways, I just want you all to know what you're feeling is valid. Fifth Harmony isn't just a girl group and don't let anyone tell you that. I understand when you say that they were there when no one else was. Those nights when you cried your eyes out and wanted to die. I know. I get it. And it's all going to be okay. I'm here for you guys if you wanna talk. Message me, we can cry together.

I'm sorry this note is a little all over the place. This is just me rambling without any editing. I just didn't want to keep updating like nothing happened. It didn't feel right. I'll try and update tomorrow. I love you all and please stay strong 💜

-jess