It Started With Hello ⇒ Camren

Fifty Seven

it's been a long ass while...does anyone still even care about this book? sorry it took so long, i lost all motivation...but i'm here...i love you...i haven't forgotten 💛

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Thursday Night

[Walz - 9:10 p.m.]
i tried, dinah.

[China Jane - 9:12 p.m.]
mila? hey what's wrong?

[Walz - 9:12 p.m.]
i'm sorry.

[Walz - 9:12 p.m.]
i'm so fucking sorry

[Walz - 9:13 p.m.]
you were only trying to be a good best friend and save me from losing what could've been a beautiful relationship.

[Walz - 9:13 p.m.]
but i treated you like shit

[China Jane - 9:14 p.m.]
camila. what's. wrong.

[Walz - 9:15 p.m.]
i fucking ignored you for so long. i dropped you. i denied you at all costs. i hurt you.

[Walz - 9:15 p.m.]
and now i tried to talk to her and she just..

[Walz - 9:16 p.m.]
i said the wrong things and i didn't mean it the way i said it and she pushed me away. she's done with me. and it's all my fault for cutting her off in the first place but i'm such a piece of shit for ever even thinking to cut her out of my life i can't even blame her for being done with my shit.

[Walz - 9:16 p.m.]
like seriously id push me away too. for gods sake i wouldn't have even been my friend at all if i were her

[Walz - 9:17 p.m.]
she deserves the best whether it's as a friend or a girlfriend and the best sure as hell isn't me.

[China Jane - 9:18 p.m.]
woah calm down mila

[China Jane - 9:18 p.m.]
seriously breathe i dont need you going into cardiac arrest on me here

[China Jane - 9:18 p.m.]
i'm the one who told you to get your head on right, remember?

[China Jane - 9:19 p.m.]
it's okay you dropped me for a little bit. i'm not angry. you're my best fucking friend. so get that shit out of your head right now.

[Walz - 9:20 p.m.]
you're too good of a friend, i don't deserve you.

[China Jane - 9:25 p.m.]
that's not true mila. and as far as lauren goes, yeah, maybe it wasnt a smart move for you to cut her off completely without explanation, but at the same time you needed your space to figure yourself and your feelings out and get your head on straight. you needing to figure yourself out doesn't invalidate the fact that you're an amazing person and the fact that you'd treat her like a princess. it just shows that everyone needs space sometimes and although you could've communicated that better, you can only consider it a lesson learned now

[Walz - 9:27 p.m.]
my feelings are always invalidated. as for treating her like a princess, it's too bad i blew my chances haha

[China Jane - 9:28 p.m.]
your feelings matter. i'll tell you forever if i have to. and you don't know that camila. give her some time, she's fragile and she's been hurt in the past. give her some time to stop being angry and come to you.

[Walz - 9:28 p.m.]
what if she doesn't?

[China Jane - 9:31 p.m.]
she will. just give her time.

[Walz - 9:32 p.m.]
how do you know?

[China Jane - 9:33 p.m.]
i can just feel it. like i know she's into you. i can feel it in my bones. she just needs some time to understand that you had to figure your feelings out and you didn't communicate it well

[Walz - 9:34 p.m.]
god i hate that i trust you

[China Jane - 9:35 p.m.]
well i'm glad you do

[Walz - 9:35 p.m.]
as much as i hate it i'm glad too

[China Jane - 9:36 p.m.]
good

[Walz - 9:36 p.m.]
yeah

[China Jane - 9:40 p.m.]
oh and mila?

[Walz - 9:41 p.m.]
yes dinah

[China Jane - 9:41 p.m.]
i love you and i'm happy you're back. i missed you tons.

[Walz - 9:43 p.m.]
i love you and missed you too china. thanks for being here for me even when i'm bitchy and leave and try to figure myself out.

[China Jane - 9:44 p.m.]
of course. it's what i'm here for. it's what i'll always be here for.