holy {joshler}

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🌱🌻🌱
You're just a ghost at most,
A set of empty bones,
Searching for anything and everything to make you feel whole,
When it gets cold.
🌱🌻🌱

Josh won't let him touch him anymore, it makes the shows awkward and tense. Tyler pretends they're fine, tells the crowd "he's important to me" calls him "my good friend on the drums", tries to high five him as he climbs onto the piano. Josh hits his drums harder, aggressively, hoping the fans take it as enthusiasm and not anger or disgust or whatever emotion it is that begun festering inside his stomach. He catches Tyler changing, he's so thin, he's refusing to eat and he's starting to look like breathing is a struggle, he's losing energy on stage too, his jumps aren't so high, he's appearing less and less in the footage Mark takes because looking at him is starting to hurt but nothing anyone says is seeming to get through. He just prays and prays and falls asleep in sporadic bursts that end with him sweating and fitful and everytime he does agree to eat he can't keep it down.