Chaos|JiCheol

Chaos 74

"Maybe we should let go."

Tila nagpintig naman ang tenga ng lahat sa narininig ... Hindi sila makapaniwalang tumingin kay Jihoon

"W-what??" Kunot noong tanong ni Joshua..

"—or maybe YOU should let us go."

"Jihoon tsk tsk tsk. Magpapakatanga ka pa rin ba? After what all he have done to you, mas pipiliin mo parin talagang ipagpilitan ang so-called lovestory nyo?" Baekhyun asked while gently caressing Jihoon's cheek.. "You can do better than this.. You can do better without Seungcheol."

"Maybe i can really do better without Cheol." Jihoon said firmly— cold eyes staring intensely with Baekhyun's. "But my best will just be shown when he's with me.. Listen here cupid, Wala akong pake kung ano mang pinagdaanan nyo ng Chanyeol na yon at kung bakit kayo pinaghiwalay. Pero pwede ba? Wag mo kami idamay sa ka-bitteran mo dahil magkaiba tayo! Kung ano mang nangyari sa inyo ni Chanyeol, kasalanan nyo na yon! Don't blame us on what happened nor divert your anger on us! Hindi porke't hindi maganda ang kinalabasan ng istorya nyo ni Chanyeol ay ganun na din dapat ang kahantungan namin! You're not the one who'll decide on how our story and ending will be! You may control us now pero tandaan mong kami parin ang magde-desisyon sa tapos naming dalawa! And we both chose not to!"

"Oh dear... You still don't get it don't you? Im not doing this to make your relationship end like ours, ginagawa ko to para hindi kayo magaya samin— sa akin. Jihoon, you're precious to me.. I was your first guardian before i was declared and passed as the new cupid.. Alam ko ang lahat tungkol sayo, Nasilayan ko lahat ng pinagdaanan mo! Kahit na noong pang si Anael na ang nagbabantay sayo ay sinubaybayan parin kita! I don't want you to end up hurting like i did! I don't wanna see you as fragile as you are before!" Seryosong saad ni Baekhyun, his voice is full of sincereness.. He sighed heavily before he held Jihoon on his shoulders. "I care about you... Your like my own child."

"I care about you. Bullshits hyung! If you really do care about me edi sana hindi mo to ginawa! If you treat me like your own child then you should have trusted me! Ayaw mo kong masaktan? Bakit? Ano ba sa tingin mo ang naramdaman ko noong pilit mo kaming pinaghihiwalay ni Seungcheol? Tuwa? Ano sa tingin mo ang naramdaman ko nung namatay si Yoongi hyung? Pagka galak? Ano sa tingin mo yung naramdaman ko nung iwan ako ng pamilya dahil sa nangyari? Excitement? Sa tingin mo ba naging masaya ko sa lahat ng ginawa mo? Sa tingin mo ba nagtatatalon ako sa tuwa nung naging miserable ang buhay ko? Two years Baekhyun- hyung..... Two years akong na-coma, i woke up with no one beside me. I recovered with no one but my friends supporting me. I felt so helpless, i couldn't talk nor remember anything.. Alam mo ba kung gaano ka sakit yun?  When you feel the emptyness but couldn't get why it's there kasi ang pinapaalala lang nila sayo yung mga masasayang alaala.. You only knew how it felt to be separated by someone. Minsan ba naisip mo kung anong nararamdaman ni Chanyeol? Hindi diba? Kasi you only focus on your own pain na hindi mo na iniintindi kung nasasaktan din ba sya. Do you know how painful it is to forget someone special? The feeling like there's something missing in you but you couldn't figure out? It was harder than what you thought hyung."

"Exactly! Ikaw lang ang nasasaktan sa inyong dalawa Jihoon—"

"Tapos sinisiraan mo si Seungcheol? Atleast he tried fixing it right? He tried and he did. Kahit na nagkamali sya noon sinubukan nyang ayusin yung relasyon namin.. Kahit na wala akong maalala ni isa sa mga pinagsamahan namin he approached me and started a new beginning.. Naging matapang sya unlike you! Hindi sya katulad mong umaasa nalang sa tingin! Baekhyun-hyung hangga't kaya pa pwede pang mabuo ang nasira.. Hangga't buhay kayong dalawa pwede pa kayong gumawa o magsimula ng bago." Jihoon said sincerely this time.. His voice was turned into a soft one as he held Baekhyun's hand. He care about Baekhyun, of course he do! They're quite close back then.. Parang kuya narin ang turing nya dito.. He remember every summer days he spent with the two; Seungkwan and Baekhyun— at ang mga kalokohang tinuro nila sa kanya. "Hyung hindi pa huli ang lahat.... You can get what you deserve.. You can get whatever you want. You're Byun Baekhyun right?"