Joshler || text 💫

NIneTeeN 🐙

( trigger warning family death/depression and suicide)

Tyler's pov
ME AND JOSH KISSED WE KISSED WE KISSED!
We are talking about our childhood just to get to know a bit more of our past,
" mine wasn't that great I mean.... I live with only my mom"
I remeber my childhood so greatly it wasn't the best I wasn't bullied or anything but I remember the day my dad had died I was 3 so I don't remember his face much but from looking at the photos in my house
"My dad died when I was 3 .... He died protecting me and my mother he saved us from bad guys that broke into my house and they were Armed my dad took them down and he got taken down with them too"

I'm not really upset I'm not emotional but I wish he was here but he's in a better place
" I'm so sorry Tyler"
He gives me a hug I know he means it because I hear him sniffle
" my uh my mom she died too.. She was very depressed and yea you know what that can lead to"
I can't believe this, who would leave there family behind? A son behind? But I knew
Why because I have depression too and I was even willing to leave everything Behind but now I have something  I have a purpose
" God I'm so sorry Joshua" I hug him and I cry
He's strong for holding on we are both strong for holding on
" let's head out movie, pizza, and icecream at my place?"
" yes!!!! Thanks Josh"
" I'll do anything for you babe"
" babe I like that"
We both walk to the car and it's already dark so we gotta blast, I'm scared of the dark
Josh opened the door for me I say thanks and we head out
"Music?"
"Yes please!" I'm so excited! I'm getting free food thank you God! And of COURCE  I'm here for my boyfriend ;)
" someone's excited" he smiles
One of the songs from my favorite band songs play "lane boy"
Oh I love it so much it always gets my jumping so matter what
I feel like every demon releases from me and I'm filled with happiness
(A/n True story anyone else?)
We both sing along
I can rap so well to this no joke I memorized the beat and when the singer takes his breathe too I like that I copy after
" but we go where we want to"
He comes the big excitement in the song exactly at 2:05 (a/u I really memorized the times ;))  
" 1 2 123 LETS GO!"
I dance in my seat I don't care how ugly my dancing is I'm feeling my self
I see Josh tapping the beat on the steering wheel
Boom boom ba-boom boom ba-boom
" I'm a drummer you know"
" I THINK you told me that already ! But that's cool!"
He can literally play the beat so perfectly
Get a guy who can do both ;)
" they said stay in your lane boy , lane boy"
" but we go where we want to"
"They think this thing is a high way , highway"
" BUT WILL THEY BE ALIVE TOMORROW???"
We are so cute lmao
He literally and to calm me down because I was too pumped

A/u:  hey it's me again! Since I'm literally in mid winter break I really got nothing to do so I want to talk to you guys if you guys are wanting to chat ya know have a friend to talk to, need someone to talk to , fan girl over TØP , I'm ya gurl so on me if you want!
Bye kiddos love y'all
-Lins 🐣