my best friend's relationship makes me sad.
im over the moon happy for her but it makes me so sad.
when will i get someone that cares about me as much as he cares about her?
will someone ever
look
touch
talk
to me that way?
part of me wants to find him right now.
part of me couldn't care less.
but what i want most desperately is to be loved.
and sometimes i don't think im getting any love.
my heart breaks at each couple i see.
every
touch
smile
laugh
word
kiss
hug
hurts me to the point where i just want to break down.
it makes me want to cry.
theres nothing i can do about it.
i am not my best friend.
i am not a
beautiful
charismatic
funny
kind
charming
person whatsoever.
so all i can do
is wait in silent pain.
