Nobody Said It Was Easy (Part 2 of It's Tuesday)

Chapter 11

Cameron POV:

The days at work were normal again.

After the incident at the bachelor party, again, Chase did get better.

But there was one thing I was holding back.

Something I hadn't told Chase yet.

But well, it wasn't my fault because I actually forgot.

It happened so many years ago it's impossible for me to remember every detail.

So at dinner that night, I told him.

"I have my husband's sperm"

I realized when I said it, it came out very suddenly.

"You're dead husbands?" he asked.

"We froze it when he was diagnosed" I explained, then went on..

"Yes, and I thought I wouldn't find someone"

"But you found someone..."

"I know. But, no one plans for a divorce"

The whole situation itself was very complicated.

I honestly don't even remember why I did it.

Sometimes even hard for me to comprehend it all.

The next day, I told him surgery worked.

"Congratulations" I told him as I stood by the wall.

Then he said this...

"I can't do it. You have doubts"

"I want to spend the rest of my life with you" I said as I took a seat on the couch.

I was trying to make a point.

No one knows if a divorce will happen, for real.

Then the conversation when on like this...

"No one knows..."

"I do" he replied.

He had also said he'd wait until I know.

Seems like that was his way of being romantic.

So, he did not have any doubts at all?

Not even one?

Then he walked away.

He wasn't angry, he was more like disappointed.

It's like when parents say when you misbehave.

They are not angry, they are disappointed.

And that's how it was with Chase.

I sat on the couch in shock, having no clue what else to say.

My mind went blank.

Isn't it normal to have doubts before marriage?

Marriage is a special commitment.

And I did want to live up to it.