I Caught A Thugs Eye

Make it Make Sense.

"If I told you I was different, would you understand the difference?"
                                       -Kevin Gates
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✨ Chapter 6 ✨

(continued)

"Up against?" I said confusedly then he nodded I looked at the moon reflecting on the water and said "I'm listening."

KéShaun POV🖤

As I was sitting contemplating Shaé took my hand while looking at me as I feel myself getting vulnerable but I knew what I had to say had to be said so I just went with the flow and kept smoking

"I'm telling you this cause after this you need to feel where I'm coming from." I said then Shaé nodded

"When I was younger my family had our situations like every other family but it got to a point where saying something didn't mean shit actions spoke louder type shit-..."

"-...My pops and uncle were pimping my sister and my momma out; I didn't find out until my sister came to me about it."

"What did you do after you found out?" She asked me

"To kill them but I only got my sperm donor."I said

"Your Uncle?" She asked

"My momma got in front of me before I could shot she said " He's my brother; he didn't mean it." I said as my eyes started to burn

"After she said that I wanted to protect my sister by trying to get her to come with me but my momma said she'd tell everything and have me arrested so at the time I just moved out."

"Tell everything, meaning like what?" She asked letting go of my hand while scoring away from me

"That I bang." I confessed as I was looking at her; her face was blank she was all ears so I continued

"I moved up in the game and when I mean I moved up I killed everybody in my path to get to the top and I ran up,down & across in people houses and I still do." I said

"When did you join?" She asked

"Around the time I was in 7th grade I was a tall ass nigga man." I said trying to lighten the mood but I looked at Shaé's face expression and she was trying to put it together

"You was in the Seventh grade; did you feel like that was your only option or something?" She asked

"I joined because my best friend was in it; he told me it was guaranteed protection and money but the money didn't start rollin' in til him, his pops, moms, Jaceon and I started to fuck the streets up ." I responded

"You wasn't worried about the shootouts, being targeted for what you rep even your friends and family being endangered?" She said as I notices how I had her undivided attention

"Worried?"I said then shook my head nah ma."

"You did ever feel like you was going to die by the streets?" She asked

"Yeah every time the devil closes his eyes to sleep." I said

Shaé looked at the water speechless and lost

"I didn't care about anything when my sister told me my pops and uncle was pimpin' her and my mom for a side hustle; I questioned everything and everybody." I said looking at her as she looked back into the water but I kept talking

"After my friend died I haven't really seen any of his family to much because someone was threatening our lives we didn't care though but we did it for family."

"Did what for family?" Shaé asked

"Stop working with each other we keep the keys to a shack where we always do business and if both of us get back up running it together the streets and the world would be getting fucked up. I responded

"Have you done anything since I've been here?"
I looked at then put out my blunt held my head looking at the sky I couldn't look at her and ended putting my face in my hands

When I felt her hands rubbing my shoulder "What's wrong, what's the point of you telling me all this?" She asked

I took my feet out the pool and stood up

"My first time saying something to you wasn't at the store...it was the night you got shot at and the only reason I know about that because it was me behind one of the guns we wasn't trying to kill you after I notice we stopped."

"Who were you aiming at?" Shaé asked

"Any and everything on that side walk until I saw you." I replied

"No, who was the target!?" She yelled

"Marshawn." I answered and she was taken back

"Why!?" She asked

"He had something to do with my friend dying and he just got out of jail and you was walking with him-..."

Tears were falling from her eye I tried to grab her hands but she snatched away from me

"Don't." She said but I hugged her as she was trying to push me off

"If I could take it back I would but what's done is done when I recognized you I stopped shooting Shaé."

I said as she stop pushing me away and stopped whimpering I notice she was giving me the same look when she and her dad got into it

So I let her go as she wipes her nose "I don't believe you stopped because of me so what's the real reason when you know we haven't spoke yet so why!?" She asked

"I told you truth." I lied she scoffed

"Lose my number." She said walking away from me so I picked her up from behind as she was kicking and screaming, put her back, getting on the top her

"Listen to me!" I yelled because that was only way to get her to listen she stopped struggling

Na'Shaé POV💔

Keshaun yelled and told me to listen to him but I was over it so I looked to side as tears were falling then I looked into his eyes

"Three days before my brother died he whispered in my ear while I was sleep well he at least he thought I was I assumed."

"-...Wanna know what he said, "I spoke, she killed it".

"He sounded so sad I wanted to get up but he kissed my cheek then left and when I woke up the next morning him, my momma and dad left and put a note on the front door it said that they'd be back in three days and my grandma would be by to stay with me and Kami."

"I think about that night everyday and it doesn't really stick to anything so I just write in my diary lock it and hide til I wanted it found I just wish I met his friends so they can tell me something I could have missed about him or his death because my mom and dad still say he died for trying to save his girlfriend but I know that's a lie she told me was going to California to visit family."

"Every single day everything about last year was crazy nothing was the same every since he died."

"Why you telling me this?" He asked me

"The same reason you just told me all that; to let you know I been through a lot and I'm still going through shit so for you to tell me you was shooting at me it's to much."

I said when Keshaun got off me, helped me up and hugged me tightly as cried into his chest

"I know you not feeling me right now but I would like to take this slow to see where we go; it's up to you I don't need a answer right now." He said to me

My head in so many places right now and I don't even know which way my own heart going and this whole situation I can't make it make sense

"-...Just know what ever you chose you still be my butterfly." He said kissed my forehead then put me down I didn't say anything and I avoided eye contact with him and just went back in the house to sleeping on the couch crying myself to sleep