forgive me of my wrongs
for my confidence has faltered
for you and I, our fate has altered
my cries, my sobs, these endless nights
of echoing loneliness and screaming fights
forgive me if I laugh at your mistakes
for I do not have what happiness takes
staring up, into the sky
stars don't shine bright, they lie
a tear falling down my cold cheek
as I lay here disturbed, selfish, pained and weak
silence is all heard, all said
not a sound as I lay here in bed
daylight shines in on me
but I turn away, joy only lets the heart decay
I'd rather be with only myself and stay selfish
than be with you and wish
the teacup in my hand trembles
and shatters to the ground, me you see
it resembles
I never want to move on
I'd rather be in this misery
than let happines take over me
for all it will do is break me
shatter my heart, like a teacup broken
like a delicate rose trampled on
like an unseen thorn discovered
so many thorns, to tear me apart
like a shredding cloth
like a broken shard of glass
stepped on
muffled sobs escaping from my lips
I guess that my eyes see what's fit
I deserve this pain
for I never loved you
never will I again
