Save Mikey Way

4~

Mikey.

I slept soundly last night after Gerard's visit for about two hours before waking up, unable to fall back asleep.

Today's "breakfast" was going to be hard.

"Good morning honey, how did you sleep?" Elena smiled brightly at me and I couldn't help but smile a bit back.
"Just fine, thank you." I easily lied, as I've been so used to it.
"What do you want for breakfast?" I froze. Gerard was just walking in the room so it was not a good time to use the 'not hungry' excuse or he was going to notice more. So I simply went along with some cereal, something that made Gerard smile a little bit.

As I was about to go to the bathroom to empty my guts, he on purpose shouted telling me that we'd be late so we had to leave, meaning I had to do it at school.

Our walk to Frank's house takes about 20 minutes and that time was just enough for Gerard to ask the burning questions about last night.

"Mikey..?"
"Yes, Gee?"
"Wh-why did you do it?"
"You don't need to know, Gerard.." I sigh deeply, wishing I could just let it all out but at the same time wishing for everyone to leave me alone.
"I do cause I am your brother and I care for you!"
"It's personal reasons. I might tell you when it's the time."
"Well, at least how long have you been doing it?"
"About four years." I said after a long moment of quiet.
Gerard was just staring at me dead in the eye and I swear he was crying.
Next moment, he hugged me and told me how much he loves me as he was crying and I did the same, still emotionless though.

"So about the not eating thing.."
"I'm just not hungry, okay?! I do eat when you're not looking."
"But-"
"Can we drop it, please?"
"Fine. We'll have a serious talk about all this sometime soon though."

The rest of the walk was quiet and so was the school day, other than a few kicks in the guts.

Why me?