best friend's Ian Gallagher

wait no

I woke up this morning with not such good of a feeling. I got out of bed and went pee i grabed something to eat then made my way to my closet grab some ripped skinny jeans and a white blue scrub top with high tops
"Hey honeyy come down here real fast" i heard my mom call feels like i havent seen here in forever.
I made my way to the living room where she was in her work outfit some what long skirt with a white button-up tucked in with her hair up but... one thing she didnt look happy
"Hey ma whats up" i said hopping down the last step
She sat down and huffed
"Honey... my job transferred me agian.."
They what her last job moved us from new york to Chicago what now.
"What why wait i dont wanna move agian"
She looked sad she look like she didnt want to move to
"When" i said my voice weak
"Next week" she said looking down.
I dont wanna move im happy here im never happy and now i am im happy with ian happy with carl,fee,debbs,franny,lip, Liam,vee,kev i dont wanna leave i got up and went to my room i guess that was my bad feeling

I sat on my bed thinking
About the good times everyone has showen me I sighed and lay down i grabbed my phone
I seen a photo of Liam and lip and i the next one carl amd lip laying in his bed
Then the next Fiona vee kev and at the bar and the one that I love the most ian and  down posing next to a passed-out Frank in the snow i smiled and felt tears run down my face I needed air i walked out of my house waling to some random place letting to cool air hit my face.
*Warning*
I  read on the sign that was red with white letters
By warning they meant that big ass cliff that my half tempted to jump off of right now
I sat down letting my feet hang off. I looked at the city light Chicago has been the best back in New York I used to get bullied but I fought back by fighting every single person I'm such a different person from the person that I was in New York only because of one person ian Gallagher sure we cause trouble by being Southside kids but he keeps me out of the trouble that I used to be in by doing drugs drinking every single night so I can't move my body sneaking out and hurting people taking my anger out on the simplest thing with that could be fixed with a hug.
God am i really gonna have to this again...move away now you might say Jade you're just overreacting but it's not overreacting when something makes you so happy I was never happy before moving to Chicago
I live there in the grassy area looking at the stars cheesy right..
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When I got home I entered the door and seen a couple boxes my mother is completely serious about this moving thing isn't she I made my way upstairs and dressed did you some pajamas and tied my hair up I want to my phone Instagram Twitter that boring stuff... I eventually started going through my stuff sorting my notes between my school work between the important stuff and not important stuff the stuff that would want to go to Ian and the stuff that I can just throw away going through my closet I seen one of Ian's hoodies I smiled and threw it on it's not just like him.
After torturing myself for awhile from packing I decided to go to bed hopefully this will be all a dream not quite a dream a nightmare