SAVE ME // POETRY & PROSE

xxxv. oh god

XXXV. OH GOD

you claim you're an atheist but it seems as if you found god in her.
she's your excuse for everything and nothing ( or no one) else matters more.

but I hope she keeps you locked out of heaven or whatever it is she believes in.

you took her religiosity and made it yours, you forgot all of your beliefs for her. I can't call that love, that's sickening to me.
and I hope eternity doesn't curse me to be next to you two forever, I can't stand see such opposites together, playing with each other.

I wish you'd peel off the mask you put on since she came down the clouds and tried to make an angel out of you too.
I can't believe how quickly you changed for someone you barely know.

-- but tell me this, do you really love her? or are you just having some fun until you end up realising in reality you're still alone? forever's a long time and I don't think I have it in me to stick around for so long.