{BRENDON POINT OF VIEW}
I woke up to my mom banging on my bedroom door
"What?" I questioned half away
"Ryan is in the hospital" my mom said
"Is he okay? What happened? He didn't try to kill himself did he?" I asked panicked
"They said he relapsed worse than before and When everything calmed down he was asking for you" mom explained
"I need to TO leave! I need to go to the hospital" I said climbing out of bed and closing my door to get dressed
I ran out the door and got in the car and sped to the hospital
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When I got there Ryan was in bed and his arms were strapped down
"Ryan what the hell happened?" I asked quietly
"I don't know it was like I was watching my body act in a way that not mine" he said
I carefully undid the bonds holding him down.
"Are You Okay Now?"
"I don't know. There's a pounding in my head, the voices are silent and I'm completely numb to any emotions. I feel like a sociopath" Ryan explained
I looked at him there were tears in his eyes I leaned in and kissed him. He kissed back almost instantly.
I pulled away "how long are they holding You Here?" I asked
"I don't know are you sure you aren't scared of me yet?" Ryan asked quietly
"Ryan nothing you do could scare me" I said
"Bren, I almost killed a nurse. Even I am scared of me" Ryan explained
"You had no control over it" I said
"Brendon that's the scary part I had no control over it" Ryan said.
"Ryan, what was the medication that silenced the voices That one time.? Can you ask to be put back on it?" I asked
"I would if i knew what it was. But I doubt they'll listen to me I'm psychotic" Ryan sighed.
I pulled him in for a hug and listened to his muffled sobs as he cried into my shoulder.
We sat there for I have no idea how long but I could tell Ryan needed this.
"Brendon...." Ryan questioned
"Yeah Love?" I Asked.
"What am I going to do when I get released ? Mom doesn't want to come home ever again and I can't live in my own because I won't have enough money for anything" ryan explained Still crying.
"Do you want me to ask for you to stay with me?" I asked
"I don't think your parents would feel safe with me in their house. They know what happened. The hospital told them" ryan sighed
"They Let me Come SEE You" i Said
"Yeah but" ryan tried to say but I cut him off by kissing him.
I felt a hand tapping on my shoulder. I pulled away from Ryan to see a doctor.
"Hello dr. Wentz" I said calmly
"What Are You Doing he asked sternly
"Kissing my boyfriend, you ?" I asked cockily.
"Checking on my patient" He scuffed
"So Ryan how are you feeling?" Fr. Wentz Asked turning TO ryan
"I'm alright. Numb but at least I'm re attacked to myself I'm not watching myself try and hurt someone I'm where I should be" ryan explained.
"Good good, we put you on some stuff you took in the past before they switched you too The new stuff. Yesterday was actually not your fault at all it was a side effect. Well I guess it didnt directly effect you but fed you hallucinations" Dr. wentz explained
"So When can he be released ?" I asked.
"It depends. I'd like to put Ryan on suicide watch." dr wentz said.
"What Why?" ryan asked
"Because you're self harm is really bad and the gash on your leg a couple weeks ago was self inflicted Have You though ABOUT suicide in the last 24hrs?" Dr Wentz asked.
"I always think about suicid" ryan sighed.
***AUTHORS NOTE******
1.) sorry it took so long to update. I almost don't want to finish the fic cuz I felt my plot line slipping
2.) I Feel LIKE Im Nof accurately portraying the mental illnesses in this fic
3.) I always write from the head and write my emotions But this fic is different Its NOT my emotions in this
4.) sorry it's a short chapter
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