Sinful Innocence (Smut)

part 4

Oh my God I haven't updated in forever
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Josh pov
Cute ass gif because why not

"sometimes the people who need it the most seemingly don't deserve it." Those were the words he said to me I couldn't help but think that maybe he was right but there was a voice in the back of my head telling me "don't listen to him you don't deserve happiness or love. The fact that you're still alive should make you sick."(honestly same) I start crying harder because this voice won't leave me alone ever since what happened to my family it's been there tormenting me and I'm so scared to tell anyone because I don't want to be perceived as crazy. I get dragged out of my thoughts by Mr.Urie shaking my shoulder with a soft "JOOoooosh" in a singsong voice. I look at him and he smiles softly at me. "What" I ask quietly "Nothing your just really pretty" he replies just as queitly. I blush and try to look away before I realize I'm still snuggled into his chest. At this realization I start to get up but because of the position I'm in the top of my head hits his chin. "Ow" I say wincing he looks at me with a worried face and rushes out "oh my gosh I'm so sorry" "it wasn't your fault" I reply I finally stand up and so does he gets up and clears his throat awkwardly saying "I should probably get going" with that he leaves.

I stand there awkwardly for a while before realizing I should probably go back out there. I hesitantly step out of my dressing room to go back out to the main floor but am stopped by Gee ,another one of the strippers that works here, he looks at me clearly seeing the tear stains on my cheeks and the redness of my eyes "Joshie what happened sugar" he asks quietly "nothing just a rough night" I answer quickly. But I knew it wouldn't be that easy because why would it ever. He shakes his head and says "Don't give me that bullshit what's wrong, don't make me get Dallon. I'll do it you know that" "Fine fine but don't get Dallon. Let's go to the back. Ok?" "Ok" he says.

We get to his dressing room and as soon as the door he nearly pounces on me "Ok Joshie now what the hell is wrong" "Well for starters one of my professors showed up here tonight and could get me caught and then I started thinking about THAT so mi nights been fucking great Gee how about yours." I snap he just looks at me shocked for a minute before replying "Oh Joshie I had no idea I'm so so sorry do you need a hug" I nod and say "It's ok" he hugs me tight "You give the best hugs you know that right?" I mumble against his shoulder. Chuckling he answers "I've been told. I think you need to go home I'm gonna go tell Dallon ok?" "No no I'll tell him I think you're right"

I turn and leave his room to go find Dallon but I didn't have to go far because as I was going down the hallway I smacked right into him. I looked up and giggled with a quick "Ow" he chuckles "You ok princess" "yeah I'm ok I just needed to talk to you" by this time he had noticed my puffy eyes and tear stained cheeks and his happy demeanor drops to one of anger "What happened sweetheart is this what you needed to talk about" hesitantly I nod and say "I think I just need to go home I'm not in the best condition mentally is that ok?" He replies quickly "Of course do you need me to take you home?" He questions I shake my head and say "Gee is taking me home" he smiles once again "ok darling I'll see you tomorrow love you" "love you too" I reply and quickly go change.

Time skip because I'm a lazy son of a bitch

When I finally make it to my apartment I quickly unlock the door and rush to my room. I set down my backpack and change into a loose Nirvana shirt and some sweatpants. After I'm all set and comfortable I grab the left over takeout in my fridge quickly eat it and head to bed where my thoughts turn into dreams.
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Hola Becky here I finally updated are y'all proud I hope so thank y'all so much for reading this book and actually caring I love y'all alot I appreciate it
I've also recently relapsed after three months of being cut free so that's great but anywhore
Stay safe, Stay alive my lovelies
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