A Thousand Years

Chapter 9

(TRIGGER WARNING IF YOU GET TRIGGERED DONT READ THE CHAPTER)

Kaylie's POV

I woke up in Andy's arms with my thoughts just racing, there was no stopping them, so I went into the bathroom and locked the door. It just kept getting worse, the thoughts getting louder and louder in my head, me telling them to shut up.

"You worthless piece of shit, no one loves you, just kill yourself already," my thoughts yelled at me.

"Stop shut up," I whispered so no one heard me.

They just kept going and going until I finally grabbed a razor from the medicine cabinet and dug it into my skin. I just kept going and going until my arms, legs, and stomach were covered in deep cuts. Then I heard a knock on the door.

"Babe, at you ok in there?" I heard Andy say.

"Yeah," I said quickly starting to clean up.

"Can I come in?"

"No."

"Kaylie, let me in."

"No."

"KAYLIE."

"Andy I'm fine."

"Then let me in."

"NO."

Then he did something I didn't really expect, he busted the door down just as I was rinsing my cuts, I fell to the floor crying again. He came running to me, held me in his arms, and rocked me.

"Why?" he asked.

"The thoughts wouldn't stop," I said.

"What thoughts."

"They were just saying how horrible I was and telling me to kill myself."

"Trust me non of what they said was true, you are amazing in everyway, and I love you."

"Thank you."

"Please don't do this again."

"I never make a promise I can't keep."

"Please for me."

" I can't"

"Fine, just try not to for me."

"Ok."

"Let's wash you up."

I sat on the  toilet while he cleaned my cuts.

"Done, now go put on leggingand a sweater so we can go to starbucks," Andy said.

"Ok," I said going to the room and changing.

We went to Starbucks, ate, talked, cuddled in a seat, which was me sitting in his lap, nuzzled into his chest, and listened to music until closing. Then we went to a lake and hung out until like 3 in the morning, we went home after and cuddled until we fell asleep

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Sorry I don't normally like writing triggers but I'm having a little writers block like I have ideas but they're ideas for later in the story so idrk rn and sorry its been awhile I just had a death in the family and now my aunt's kids arent safe so shits going on so if I don't post that's why