The One? //Shawn Mendes

•chapter 43•

Morgan's POV

So Christmas was a couple days ago. New Years is in a couple days also. And this past week Shawn has been, different? That sounds like a bad different but it not.

By different I mean. Well. I don't exactly know.

"Hello?" Macey asks. I'm in Aaliyah's room right now calling Macey. Aaliyah's in the living room so it's just me in here.

"Hey Macey." I say. "Hey girly. What's up?" She asks. "I need to tell you something. Or ask for advice? I don't really know." I say.

"Spill." She says.

"Well for the past week Shawn has been, different." I say. "Different how?" She asks.

"Um I'm pretty sure he wants to take the next step in our relationship." I say. "Okay but which next step? There's a lot of steps that could be taken from where you guys stand right now." She says.

"Next step. As in... um. Well as in. Ugh. Next step as in sex." I say. "Ohhhhh damn." She says. "Okay first of all, tmi. That's between you two." She says laughing.

"Yea but I don't know what to do." I say. "Okay I'm gonna regret asking this but how do you know? That he wants to take that step?" She asks.

"Let's see. Every night we've been making out and he's been getting more intense with it and I always reject him when he tried to pull my shirt off." I say. "Oh well yep. That'll do it." She says.

"Macey. I'm. I'm not ready for that. At least I don't think. I don't know. What happened between me and Derek. That's something I won't forget. And what if-" I get stopped by Macey's voice cutting me off.

"You really think Shawn would pull a Derek?" She asks. "His name is a verb now?" I ask chuckling. "In this case it is. Anyway, Shawn's not like that. From what you're telling me he hasn't been forcing you into anything you don't wanna do. He stops when you have him stop." She says.

"Yea. But I don't know if I am ready or not. Like how do you know? Like I don't know." I say. "Morgan. With this kind of thing, you just know." She says.

"I mean you love him, right?" She asks. "Yes. Very much." I say. "And you guys have been together how long?" She asks even though she most likely already knows the answer. "Two years." I say. "Exactly. So you two have loved each other for two years. You guys have overcome many things and y'all are stronger than ever. Morgan. If you're ready. Then you're ready. You can't let anyone tell you otherwise." She says.

"I know. But I think the whole Derek thing ruined this for me. I haven't even thought about this happening until about a week ago. And now it never leaves my mind. Like what if I'm not ready and Shawn leaves me cause he wants something more than I can give him." I say as my eyes start to sting with tears threatening to spill.

"Morgan. We both know Shawn. He would never do such a thing. He's not my ex." Macey laughs. "Yea you're right." I sigh. "I just really don't know." I say.

"Just give it time girly. That's probably what you need. If he does well you know. Get intense, oh my god I'm gonna throw up. But if he does that again don't even think about Derek. Think about you and Shawn. You and Shawn only. Cause when that happens it's only you and Shawn. Holy shit I'm so gonna throw up." She says.

I laugh at her. "Okay thanks Mace." I say. "No problem, love. And if anything just talk to Shawn about this. He'll understand. I gotta go now. Update me with whatever happens. Actually don't. I don't need details on your sex life." She says. "I don't even have one." I laugh. "Not yet." She says. "Shut up." I say rolling my eyes.

"Okay bye Morgan. Talk to ya later." She says. "Okay bye Mace." I say and hanging up the phone.

I sigh and sit down on Aaliyah's bed with my face in my hands. I really don't even know what to do.