High Emotions ; Phan au

Four

"N-No!" Dan shook his head. His heart rate in his heart monitor sped up. "My fault. I'm stupid. Dunno why I feel like this. I didn't know what to do. And you seemed to hate me so much so I tried to keep my mental health some okay the best I could but you– I don't know. Got sick of me."

"Dan I never got sick of you, I just got sick of how you treated me like a king and always tried to be in my company it confused me? It wasn't like we were best friends it felt more like a relationship." Phil explain, his knees shaking up and down "I am the reason for this don't lie to me Dan, I'm such an idiot- I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry." Phil said as his eyes filled with water

"I'm sowwy. Don't cry because of me. I'm stupid, please." Dan said desperately. "S'not your fault. Hated myself even before you kicked me out." He tried to sit up to comfort Phil but immediately whimpered in pain and fell back down. Fuck, why did it hurt so much?!

Phil wiped his tears away, "no no Dan, don't worry about me sorry geez." Phil said as he winced, why did he keep messing Dan up, "you've just been in for surgery don't move hon." Phil reminded Dan, gently stroking Dans hair again and reaching for his hand again

Phil wiped his tears away, "no no Dan, don't worry about me sorry geez." Phil said as he winced, why did he keep messing Dan up, "you've just been in for surgery don't move hon." Phil reminded Dan

Phil wiped his tears away, "no no Dan, don't worry about me sorry geez." Phil said as he winced, why did he keep messing Dan up, "you've just been in for surgery don't move hon." Phil reminded Dan

"I get that, but what did they do to my liver? Because, I can't take money from someone if they paid for a transplant. That's expensive as shit," Dan mumbled.

"Luckily I found you early enough so they just removed a section of your liver that was essentially going to kill you." Phil explained softly as he brushed Dans hair

"Oh." Dan looked down. Then, something hit him, "Wait, found me?" He thought Phil was called by the hospital because he was Dan's emergency contact. So what was he talking about?

"Yeah, I found you passed out on the side of the road, id just met Alex and I was on my way to your apartment to see if we could figure shit out because believe it or not i was hurting so bad without you around- but yeah I thought you where homeless but until I saw you up close- I didn't realise it was m
you." Phil said his heart clenching at the thought of seeing Dans unconscious body

"Oh," Dan's heart twisted. He tried not to wish that Phil had just left him there to die. Then none of this would have happened.

"My head constantly thinks, 'what if I never found you' all the time and that's the scariest thing Dan." Phil said with a soft and sad tone, "I couldn't cope if I lost you and I can't believe that it's your near death that made me realise this even more."

Dan looked at Phil in surprise. Surely, Phil was lying. Dan was a nuisance to Phil. Dan's very prescence irritated Phil. Dan knew that. Maybe Phil was lying because Dan had just gotten out of surgery. Yeah that had to be it.

Dans silence hurt more than it should of as Phil winced visibly "A penny for your thoughts?" Phil asked trying to brighten the dull and dark atmosphere

"Nuffin." Dan shook his head and shut his eyes. Why was he alive. He didn't want Phil to spend money on him.

"Okay." Phil said slightly awkwardly "do you think you're ready to meet Alex?" Phil asked hopefully