High Emotions ; Phan au

Nine

"Well, I usually top but I'll let you top. I'm a switch. Whatever makes you comfortable." He smiled and kissed his nose and then lips.

"No." Phil said softly "I want you to take me, I trust you Alex." Phil explained as he began to avert his attention to on of Alex's buttons on the top of his polo neck shirt

"You sure you don't wanna after out dinner? Right now?" Alex asked gently. He didn't want Phil to rush. He wanted to be a 100% sure Phil was okay with this.

"You're too sweet for your own good you know that right?" Phil said with a sweet laugh "what did I do to deserve a guy like you?" Phil asked "but does this answer your question?" Phil said with a cheeky smile, spinning himself around, his back against the wall as he pulled Alex down to kiss him but the collar of his shirt

Alex gave in as he kissed Phil more dominantly. He groaned as he took Phil's arms and pinned them against the wall as he kissed him. "I'm gonna make you scream, Lester." He mumbled against his lips as he slowly began grinding their cocks together.

Something inside Phil squirmed, his head screaming no but he didn't care, he knew he wanted Alex "oh really?" Phil asked sceptically raising an eyebrow, pulling away of from the kiss "prove it to me Collins."

"You're gonna see. I'll make you feel so good." Alex grinned as he pecked his lips before grabbing Phil thighs, Phil jumped slightly to help with the lift as Alex began carrying him to the bedroom.

Phil kissed Alex more needy than before, he just wanted this whole thing to be over with, from the preparation he did this morning he should be all set for Alex and they'll have finally done it, 'maybe then he won't feel as uncomfortable' Phil thought, but was soon broken off by feeling his back being placed onto the bed swiftly

Alex got on top of him and kissed down his neck. But for some reason Phil wasn't moaning as much as from all the times Alex had sucked hickeys onto him. He pulled up and frowned as he cupped his cheek, "You sure you wanna do this?"

"Please keep going." Phil said with a desperate, breathy voice, trying to desperately reconnect his lips with Alex's and stop the small talk

"Phil, something's wrong and you're not telling me." Alex said as he shook his head and pulled away before Phil could kiss him.

"No Alex please I'm fine please." Phil begged trying to stop him self from crying, he needed someone to touch him to stop his mind running

"No, phil." Alex shook his head and got off him, buttoning his shirt back up, and attempting to fix his tousled hair.

Phil chest was now noticeably moving quicker, he moved his hands to cover his face as he felt tears prick his eyes as he swallowed deeply

Alex turned around and saw Phil covering his face. "Hey, hey, hey, what's wrong?" He said gently and sat down next to him, wrapping his arms around him and holding him close.

Phil quickly wiped his eyes as he removed his hands "I'm fine please Alex I want you so badly." Phil said trying desperately to let this happen. He needed to, he couldn't not let  this  happen

"You shouldn't feel pressured, Phil. I do want you. But I don't want you to do anything you regret. Even if you have the slightest doubt, I don't wanna do anything." He reassured Phil as he rubbed up and down his arm.

"I don't Alex, please I really want you." Phil said as he tried to straddle his legs either side of Alex

"Phil, youre acting weird." Alex mumbled and looked down, letting Phil straddle him, not wanting to push him away and appear hostile