High Emotions ; Phan au

Seventeen

Dan didnt really know what was happening. He was much too relaxed to think of what was happening. He just leaned in too. He was about to press his lips agaisnt Phils when the realisation hit. He immediately pulled away and looked down. "N-No." Dan strained. His eyes teared up as he forced himself to say, "I can't do this. You have Alex."

Phil immediately felt his heart break just looking at Dan, fuck he was so beautiful he needed Alex out of the situation "n-no Dan I don't care about Alex I'll break up with him- I-I'll do anything please." Phil said with a desperate whine, he was so close to kissing him

"You're just saying that out of pity. Please, I don't want to come between you both. This was a mistake." Dan struggled to get off Phil and move to his wheelchair, getting on it. He looked down and immediately wheeled out, back into his room.

"Dan why would I pity you?" Phil said but his heart dropped when Dan said this was a mistake "w-wait what? Why was this a mistake?" Phil said gulping back a lump in his throat

"I shouldn't have come here. I'm messing things up." Dan mumbled and moved into his room. As soon as he got there, he shut the door and let out a little sob.

"Dan you're not messing things up! I don't want to be with Alex I want to be with you- please Dan." phil said with a pleading tone behind the door, hearing Dans cried just made his heart hurt

Dan locked the door and ignored phil. This was not good. Dan was horrible. Phil didn't need Dan too ruin things. Honestly, he wished this would all end and he could
leave, but he had to pay his mum back first.

"Dan please listen to me-" phil begged behind the door, leaning against it "do you really not want this? Was it really a mistake everything that's happened between us?" Phil asked not wanting to hear the answer

Dan took a deep breath and opened the door. "I'm a depressed, suicidal alcoholic that you should've left on the streets, okay? There's no way in hell I'm going to ruin your life by intervening any more than I already am. Please... Alex is good for you. He takes care of you. He's made you happier than you've ever been. All I've done is bother you."

"Dan you listen to me-" phil said holding back his tears "you have been nothing than good for me , I'm the one that drove you to all these things Dan and you not just some alcoholic that should have been dead on the streets you're my best friend." Phil said "you're the best thing to happen to me Dan please- I really do love you."

"So you fell in love with me after I got discharged a day ago, huh? That's believable." Dan said sarcastically and wheeled back to struggle to pull a suitcase up. He almost felt like Phil was mocking him.

"What? Dan no I've loved you since I've know you but now I really feel like there's something between us that can work more-" Phil said as he wiped the tears away quickly "but if you truly feel like everything was a mistake I'll just leave you alone - I just want you to know that I really love you Dan and I can't stand the thought of you leaving." Phil chocked up

"I have no reason to believe you." He sighed and began throwing his clothes uselessly into the suitcase along with his meds. "How can you say that when all you did was yell at me about how pathetic and selfish and worthless I was before I moved out? Was that out of love? Of course not! After that you dated A-Alex. So no way you fell in love then. Admit it, phil. It was all out of pity."

"Pity? You think I fell in love with you through pity?" Phil said almost angrily "I'm not in love with you out of pity Dan, yes I was so shit you can remind me of that everyday, and Dan I really do not think I'm in love with Alex, I'm more in love with the affection he gives me." Phil said "But Dan please I want you to listen to the words I'm telling you- and that's I really do believe that I love you." Phil said