dear anyone who cares

silence is golden?

i hate telling the truth i really use this story to tell the truth because use dont know me and if you make fun of me ill have more resons to die :) 

im not going to sit here and put smily faces on my twitter and on wattpad because then people might think when i die it was a 'typicaly stressed out teen' but its more then that i wont eat because society says I am and i know i am ...look at me ewwww god i would love to slice of all my fat .but id bleed out . i reallly and truely want to lye in the bath and bleed out .

but thats what I want , but i can never suceed in suicide ....dont ask me why, ill tell you.its because im useless at fucking eveything and i deserve to die. no one wants me around and if you say you do i nknow your only pretending t like me and one day youll get you friends and beat me up and make fun of me .dont say you wont youll only scare me more just tell me the truth.its not like i dont already know how much you hate me.Sure its almost as much as i hate my self .ha you always belived me,how could i be fine.im not okay.....im never okay. STOP asking i hate it because ut make s me feel worse knowing i cant tell you