What color is your ribbon?

Chapter 10 "When one door closes"

"Where would you be without sparknotes?" Emily fired back.

"Same exact place, I use shmoop."

"Weasel" she said concludingly. "A smart one at that." I love Emily she's like my other half. Always been there, always will be. I hope.

"What do you want to do?" I asked her.

"Let's make wish lists," Emily proposed,"of things we could actually get."

We both pulled out our laptops. We didn't talk much, just listened to music. I pulled up the Lululemon webpage. I put in my cart a pair of black leggings, a pair of grey leggings, a light blue jacket and a hoodie. This is a wish list anyway, but I'm putting on it things I could use for skiing. I also put on a new wallet.

After looking at my list, I realized that maybe my life isn't too bad. Some families with sick kids send every penny they earn towards their care. I don't get to see my dad often, but he works hard so that my family can enjoy our lifestyle. My mom talks on her phone more than with me, but I have an amazing best friend and boyfriend to keep me company.

It was at this point I set my eyes on a goal. Whatever I do with my career, I will help raise arthritis and cancer and childhood illness awareness. Unless there's sparknotes for finding cures, I think my expertise will be better used in the social media and the business aspect. Now I have a dream bigger than me. But still, my smaller than me dream is to go to Colorado with Emily. Maybe with Jake too.

"Have you brought up Colorado at all with your parents?" I asked her breaking the silence.

"Um... Not really, I don't know if my doctors would clear me to go skiing like at all let alone with someone else who just got out of the ICU." I hate life again. Well just parts of it.

"Oh yeah, I guess. There's always Spring break. Or heaven." I said trailing off.

"Drama queen much?" She responded throwing her hand over her forehead in a dramatic fashion.

"I should be getting some rest. Long day tomorrow. Thanks for coming over Em." I gave her a hug.

"Thanks for having me!" She said very chirpy.

"My parents aren't here, you don't have to pretend that it's some special occasion that you came over." I said.

"You know me so well." She said as she closed my door. She popped back in,"sex equals bad."

"Yes ma'am." I responded saluting her.

Today has opened my eyes to a lot. But now it's time to close my eyes and recover from trying to have a social life.