Just Another Mafia Story [Completed!]

Chapter#61 "Come on dad"

RAT'S POV:

you know what's the worst thing that can ever happen to you that you don't have any control over is 'Loss' when someone you love leaves you forever without even a goodbye, he or she disappears and you are left behind with only their memories,

Mourning atmosphere is back, the game is same but the player has changed, and I wish the player was not one of us, it's been 3 days and nights, silence has clutched us from every side,

Jean's death was a shocking one indeed, nobody ever thought of his departure, well nobody ever knows when someone is going away, it just happens, so it did.

Kat is locked in her room, she has cut her self out from everyone in this house except me, I feel so useless sometimes because I can't fix her, she is as blank as darkness,

I can't seem to reach out to her, I lost her that day too, but I won't sit and let the darkness take her away from me, I will bring her back, I have to, I am just giving her space, that's all she needs right now, to sort things out on her own,

I visit her often but sometimes I leave her alone as well, I don't know, I get quite aggressive when something happens to her, something is disturbing her and to see her like this is killing me,

I wish, I could ease her pain, I wish I could bring him back, but I can't,  I feel so bad you know... she had feelings for him, she wanted to be in a relationship with him, but it ended before it started,

she blames herself for that, she blames herself for everything, you don't know how crushed I feel right now, I am her walking diary, I know what she wants and I know how desperately she wants it,

I know everything, she has from the start told me everything, from the stupidest things to the scandalous things and I, like a true, loyal best friend have kept them buried deep in my heart and have taken an oath that I will never use that information to win her over,

If I want her to like me, I will do it on my own like normal guys do, I am in a really critical condition I know, It's impossible to climb over 'the great wall of friend zone' but someday If I ever get a chance I will climb it,

I have done whatever I can in my life to make her happy and in the end, I always win, but this time it seems to be rather impossible to get her out of her trauma, she is shaken to the core, she is lost, entirely lost,

I guess she loved him, this part makes me a little envious but what it makes me more is angry, she is my best friend first, and the only complaint I have against God is that he should have given both of them a chance, shouldn't have taken him yet, she deserved to be happy.

seeing her in a messy, uncombed hairstyle with brooding, lifeless, puffy eyes summoned with wet lashes, skin pale due to the aching that resided in her bosom,

clutched against her body his shirt that she stole from him and promised herself to never give it back, it was a pretty funny thing, weird indeed but still she opened it to me, and I didn't judge, she was insane in a really beautiful manner, she was a perfect mess,

I don't know why she is punishing herself for something that was an accident, I want her to accept that it wasn't her fault, shit happened unexpectedly out of nowhere, I want her to not give up, at least not right now, she has another reason to fight with the world, she has survive, climb up the ladder towards light,

"Randy you here man?", I was brought back to life by Edgar, who was a little worried, I nodded with a half smile,

"I know this is not a perfect time to say this, but she needs to get back on track, her party depends on it, she missed two meetings, now this is the third which will commence tomorrow", he was right,