why not? | finn wolfhard |DISCONTINUED|

7

The next day at school I felt so alone.
I realized that without Josh I'm literally a complete mess.

I didn't even look to make friends, why should I be fake with other people.

?: Hey Han'.

I turn around and see Finn.
He looks fine today, god.

I just started looking at every feature on his face because we were pretty close.

Me: You have freckles!
Finn: Yeah, a lil' bit.

He started giggling.

Me: What?
Finn: I just didn't expect that. Okay, let's go now.
Me: Where?
Finn: At yours!
Me: But we still have 2 hours of math left?
Finn: Are you in a 2 hours math mood or a Mean Girls mood?
Me: Great let's go then.

We couldn't just leave because it was too soon and nobody could leave.

The only way to get out is to climb a wall that's between the school and the parking lot so we went there but saw a camera.

Me: You have a hood?
Finn: Yeah why?
Me: The principal could see us through the cameras. Put your hood on.

We put our hoods on and started climbing the wall.
When we were on the other side we started running with our school bags and laughed about it.

We were pretty far from school so we took of our hoods and I put some music on my phone with my earphones of course.

Me: Oh by the way we need to take the bus. Is that bothering you?
Finn: No, not at all!

I look at my phone.

2:34PM.

Me: We need to wait till 2:50, ugh.
Finn: And what time is it now?
Me: 2:34.
Finn: Well then, umm, let's go buy something to eat and drink for the movie?
Me: Sure.

A Target was not that far from here, like 5 minutes from the bus stop so we started walking towards Target.

Me: You like to eat infront of a movie?
Finn: Who doesn't, to be honest?
Me: Me, but I love to drink caffeine a lot infront of movies, or just in general actually.
Finn: Weirdo.

At Target Finn bought popcorn, potato chips and cheetos and I bought a 12 pack of redbull.
When we got out of Target, I took a bag of hot cheetos from Finn.

Finn: Hey! You should've bought yourself cheetos.
Me: But sharing is caring my friend.

He rolled his eyes and started walking again.

Me: You mad?

No response.

Me: Umm hey it's just a bag of cheetos.

Still nothing.

Me: Wow I love talking to myself.

When we were at the bus station, Finn sat on the bench who was at the station.

Me: You're literally so annoying.

I sat beside him and kissed his cheek.

He smirked.

Finn: I am.
Me: You're what?
Finn: Annoying, as, hell.
Me: Oh I can see.

He took some cheetos out of the bag and placed them all in his mouth.

When the bus arrived, the bus was full so we went in the middle where there was some space.

He took one of my earphones once again.

Me: Gosh, you need to buy some earphones.

I hope he doesn't.
He laughed.

Finn: I don't, I enjoy listening to your music with you. It's like we're in the same world.

I completely agree but I didn't say a word.

A few minutes later, we were already on my bed with all the food and my laptop on it aswell.

Me: Great, netfliiix.

I clicked on " My List " and I found the movie right after.

Me: Ready for the best movie ever?
Finn: Nuh-uh. Nothing's better than High School Mucial honey.
Me: Oh god, true!

I put the movie and opened a can of redbull.
"healthy" my ass.

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Finn: I need to get a tattoo one day...
Me: What?
Finn: I nee-
Me: No I heard you. That's all you gotta say after this masterpiece.
Finn: It was a little cheesy at the end.
Me: God, tell me one high school movie who doesn't finish with a cheesy ass prom?

He started looking at my wall, thinking.

Finn: You're right.
Me: I'm always right.

Wow. This reminded me of that conversation with Josh when we talked about Finn on the first day.
I smiled at the thought. I really miss him, it's like half of my heart has been ripped.

I think I never thought about if one of us will go in another country, how the other one will feel.

And to think that he doesn't even reply to my texts...

Finn: Hey, you okay?
Me: Yeah, why?
Finn: You look kinda sad.
Me: Oh I am. I am. I'm sorry.

I put my hand infront of my mouth and tears just started rolling over my cheeks.

I walk up to my bathroom and lock the door.

I have a lot of internet friends and I knew they weren't by my side and it didn't bother me since I had Josh by my side all the time. But now to see that he sees my texts and doesn't write back because "my connexion is slow" my ass.

That was his last text this morning, and that excuse is the dumbest excuse ever.
Does he know that I can see the likes and the comments that he writes? Is he that dumb?
That was somthing that I was always afraid of.
Losing him.

Me: Shit!

Finn.

I ran out of the bathroom and saw that he wasn't on my bed no more.
I go out and saw him downstairs, putting his coat on.

Me: Wait, don't go.
Finn: Why?
Me: I need someone to talk to, so umm, can you be that, someone?
Finn: Sure.

He removed his coat and sat on the couch and I sat beside him.

I started telling him everything.
My past. Josh. My social life. All that kinda stuff.

Me: I don't know what changed him! I mean one day he tells me he loves me and misses me and then he just stopped replying. He was the only person who was by my side when I was sad or happy and now I got nobody and it just fucks me up.

He hugged me from the side.

Finn: Maybe there's a certain reason, I mean he can't just stop talking to you like that. You mean the world to him, everybody knows that. And I'll be here. I promise.
Me: Thank you. Ugh I feel like a drama queen now.
Finn: Oh honey you are.

He said that with a pitch voice which made me giggle.