Hidden Secret// ✔️COMPLETE✔️

•Chapter 13•

Delirious's POV

I laid in my bed. It was awkward in the room. I want Evan to switch rooms with ohm.

I got up quietly. I rubbed my eyes and walked to the kitchen.

I didn't need these in a long time but now I do. I grabbed my Anti- depressions and a glass of water.

I took two and chugged water down. I went for my bag again.

I took out a box of cigarettes. I sighed. I knew I shouldn't but I did. I walked outside and sat on the porch.

I lit one and put it in my mouth. When I was little my dad used to smoke. I hated it. Now I understand why he did though.

I heard the door open. I looked up. We made eye contact. "Hey delirious." Wildcat said.

I looked away and put the cigarette back in my mouth. "Hey Tyler." I said blowing smoke out of my mouth.

He sat next to me. I offered him a cigarette. He took it. I lit it up. He took a big puff.

"I'm sorry for what we did. I saw how Evan liked and flirted with you. It was just a joke. I didn't mean any harm." He said with sorrow in his voice.

That's it. Feel sorry for me but don't think we're okay. "It's okay." I said. My brain is fucked up.

I can't feel anymore. I'm numb to emotions. "Evan loves you." Tyler spoke.

I chuckled. "I'm not sure about that." I said taking a big puff of the cancer stick.

"What do you mean?" I sighed. "When he sees the true Jonathan Denis he'll leave just like my dad." I said.

"He doesn't love me, he just thinks he does. And if he loves someone it's not me. It's Sydney." I finished. He stayed silent. I wouldn't have much to say after that either.

"I see your point." He finally said. I nodded and put the cigarette back in my mouth.

"I need to escape from this bullshit life. It's not worth it anymore." I thought out loud.

"Delirious, someone out there loves you." He pled. "I know, I haven't met that person before."

I said grabbing my cigarettes and walking to the spot. It seemed less beautiful.

Then my mind went to Evan and Sydney. He really does love her. I thought I was okay. But I'm not.

I hope everyone feels bad for what they did to me. I hope the misery drowns them.

They don't know what I do to myself. I cuddled Evan's jacket I was wearing. It was his red one.

I never thought when I was older that I would be abandoned. They all did this to me.

I took a deep breath. It's like there's a ghost in me. I can't feel. I can't see a future for myself.

I can't even see myself tomorrow. I'm not okay and it's their fault. I hope they're sad when they think of me.

I hope they're okay without me.....