Have you ever liked someone?
So much that a certain smell reminds you of them?
Or a sound
A color
A type of music
Have you ever liked the way that person talks?
The way she pronounces a word
The way she smiles
The way she laughs
The way she acts
The way she eats
And then she does something that, until that moment you didn't know she was capable of doing
She kissed you
She fucking took your first kiss
Something that was supposed to be 'romantic'
Because you were having a panic attack and she didn't know how to calm you down
Then afterwards she asked you- she fucking had the audacity to ask- if you could just forget about it because she "wasn't ready for a relationship"
And you agreed
Because she kissed you
And that alone made you believe that you had a chance
That if you just waited
Maybe in time
She'll be ready
But no
You waited
And waited
For months
Seven months to be exact
But true to her word she acted like the kiss didn't happen
So you respected that
You respected that she wasn't 'ready'
So you tried to move on
But some months later you're having a conversation with her on the phone
And she asked you out
You were ecstatic
So fucking estatic
And you agreed
Looking back on it you should've seen that you made a horrible choice
Because two days later
She texted you
"I think we need to talk"
And right away you knew
You fucking knew
She said "I think we might've rushed things"
You felt your chest tighten
And you were struggling to breathe
You were torn
You thought she had finally come around
You don't text back for a while
Not because you were ignoring her
But because of the fact that you didn't know what to say
Then after a while
After a while
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