My Equestrian Life

#90 Worst Week Ever

Hi guys...I haven't ridden in 2 weeks BC of the weather :(

But Christmas is in 8 days so that's cool👍🏻
~This Chapter is not horse related but I'm really sad and by writing stuff down it makes me feel better😕~

This past week has been horrible for me though... I'm still kinda upset and I don't think I'll ever forget what went down Friday at school...

So on Wed, my two friends and I were talking and joking around (I'm going to call them L & D) In homeroom. That night a friend texted me and said "Why did you get D suspended?" And I'm like omg what?! I'm so confused. So she added me to this chat and D was accusing of me and L for ratting him out and getting him suspended. I got really upset and had to explain that I had no idea that he was suspended until right now, and that I never told on him

Apparently a kid over heard our convo that morning and thought D said something like he was going to kill someone or something (which he never did and it was a misunderstanding) so they told the principal and the principal called him that night and suspended him

I felt so bad for D, so the next day I went to talk to my principal. I was so nervous because I hate speaking up, I'm more of a quiet stay out of things person, but I had to tell my side of the story.

So I went to my principal that morning (Thursday) and he got my old guidance counselor and we went into his office. I explained that I never heard D say anything bad or mean and that we were all just having a simple convo about freshman we liked/didn't like. Then the dean of students walked into the room and I got so scared, my principal started asking more questions and then I lost it, I started crying. He thanked me for coming to talk with him and then sent me to the guidance room with my old counselor and she helped me calm down and prepare to head to my next class

The next day (Friday), I woke up and felt kinda happy and I was so excited it was Friday and I was going to the mall that night. So half way through first period I got called down to the office, I met my vice principal there and she told me to get my backpack and meet her in the meeting room

I freaking lost it, on the way to the meeting room I broke down into tears, I walked in and saw my principal, vice principal, old counselor, new counselor, dean and 4 of my friends. I sat at the table and cried my eyes out

(What happened during the meeting I won't say for it's personal and apparently something happened in a group chat with my friends and because my name was in the chat, the principal thought I was involved...which I wasn't...)

So half way through the meeting my principal and new counselor took me out and we went to the guidance room. I was having a nervous breakdown because I was scared I was going to get suspended or that my Grammy would find out.... my principal said he took me out of the meeting because he saw how upset I was. He said that I wasn't in trouble and he knew that I would have never been involved with what happened, but he had me go to the meeting to make sure in person I wasn't involved...

He said he would call my Grammy to let her know what happened, but I told him that she has a lot of medical problems going on(which she does😞) and that telling her about this would stress her out, and thankfully he decided not to call her

So then he had me stay with my counselor. My counselor calmed me down and he gave me the choice to go to class or not. I decided to stay in the guidance room because I was so shook up from what happened. He was so nice and amazing. He took out some puzzles (they were marvel puzzles yass👏🏻😂) and I literally sat in the guidance room all day, doing puzzles🔥 it was so relaxing and really helped calm me down.

During lunch I went to buy my food and I saw some friends at lunch, I explained to them what happened and that I didn't have in school suspension, I just chose not to go to class, and then I went by to guidance and ate my food.

After lunch, I decided to try to go to ocean class. bad mistake, because I cried so much I had a splitting headache and I couldn't focus, so after the period ended I went back to guidance and finished the puzzles  until school ended (I completed 5 puzzles😂👍🏻)

My dean and vice principal were also so nice that day, they kept coming in and seeing how I was doing and was fine with letting me stay in guidance. And my counselor was literally the best person ever, he was so funny and wicked nice and he's the reason I went home smiling, rather than crying

I still have not told my Grammy, and I'm not planning on it. I'm also not in trouble, I did not get any slips or suspensions. It was all a misunderstanding and after those 3 days I realized that, yeah I may seem weak and cry over things, but I'm also brave. I stood up for myself and came right out with the truth, which I'm surprised that I even did and I cried in front of 8 people (which was embarrassing...) but ended up leaving school with a smile. I will never forget what happened though and a part of me will never be the same now, but I'm happy it's over now and I can move on.

I'm also happy that D is still my friend and that all my other friends were really proud of me saying how brave I was to speak up 😊

I know this chapter might seem stupid or pointless in a horse book, but I think it's a pretty valuable lesson:

Speak up. If I have never spoke up and told D that I didn't tell on him, he probably would have hated me forever, If I didn't tell my principal my side of the story, D could've been in more trouble and if I  didn't speak up at the meeting, I could've ended up getting into trouble for something I didn't do.

Even if you're shy or quiet, you have a voice, use it. Don't be afraid. Stand up for what's right and let your words be heard. It will help you, just like it did for me👍🏻