Falling Apart | k.th (Complete)

Dominos

“You said goodbye to me,
every night before I went to bed,
I hated that even more than dying,
It feels like this night is the end of you and me.”
- Love is not over

  Seconds feel like minutes, minutes feel like hours, hours feel like days. I lost the only constant in my life. The only thing that I hoped to always be there. My mother was my hero all my life. She protected me from everything bad. She was the shield that hid the awfulness of this cruel world from me.

  I was numb. Completely numb. Tae didn’t even dare to leave my side. We sat there for two more hours and I saw the sun starting to rise again. I finally look up. My face was buried in his hoodie the whole time and he didn’t make single move. The only thing he did was caress my back and I appreciated it. “You need to go home. You need sleep. The other miss you.” I say and to be honest, I don’t even want him to go. I want him to never leave my side. “I stay until you are better.”

  “But I shouldn’t be your priority. You are an Idol. There are more important things in your life than to accompany a random person you just met.” Self-hatred starts consuming my mind. I am not worth his company. I will never be. He will always be too good for me and I should always remind myself of this.

  A young man entered the café.
“Here you are hyung. I searched nearly the whole town to find you.”
It was Jungkook. He looks exhausted. Sadly, I couldn’t understand what he said but I think it was something like ‘Come home’.

  “I am sorry. I needed to accompany Syra. Her mother just died and I couldn’t just leave her alone like this.” Tae answers while looking at me. The depth of his voice makes me feel comfortable. I always had a thing for deep voices.

  “Your luck that our practice today was canceled since Yoongi-hyung got ill again. Should I leave you two alone?”

  “Ask her not me.”

  “Should I go, Syra?” he doesn’t have such a strong accent as Tae, but it is still cute. “I think I should go home anyway. Amy may wonders where I am.” I replied. “You OK?” Tae asks me with a caring look again. “Yes I am. I survived more than this. It’s... It was just the shock that took me down. I am totally fine. Yes. I am fine.”

  “You are not.” Jungkook says from the other side of the room. “Of course I am. I have never felt this good before.” My voice cracked while saying this and burning tears start to fill my eyes again. How am I supposed to let this guy leave when I cannot go five minutes without crying? Tae hugged me again. He places his chin on my head. It was a meaningful gesture to me. It somehow shows that he protects me.

  “Stay with me.” I say under my breath, so quiet that I didn’t even hear it myself. “Always.” Was the only thing he says. ‘Always’. Hearing this word, I start crying again. It was something my mother always answered to this question. And now Kim Taehyung says it. He barely knows me. The only thing he knows is my name. And now he says that he will stay with me always? This all seems like a dream. A really awful dream.

  Jungkook just stands at the other side of the room. You can read in his face how awful he feels seeing me cry and not being able to do anything to change it.

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  Just as I thought my life couldn’t get worse, I look to Jungkook and spot a face behind him looking inside the café through the big window. Her eyes get bigger with every second and she storms in.

  “Jungkook! Taehyung! OMG IT’S REALLY YOU! AAAAAAH!”
She shouts like they would want to kill her. I only see her through a blur since my eyes are still filled with tears. She finally looks at me, but as seeing me and realizing I am not one of them her smiles fades and she immediately takes out her smartphone to take a picture. Tae realizes what she is up to and tries to hide me from the camera but she already got her picture.