What did I do to deserve such agony?
Can you tell me?
Darling,
you know more than anybody.
Fuck,
I gave you my everything.
Fuck,
I told you to stay with me.
What happened to your needle baby?
You injected it into me,
pumping venom
through my bloody mess of a heart.
Just when I thought
your lips were taking it from me.
You said,
"smile",
told me things would be okay
but only for however long
you thought I was worthy
enough for you to stay.
She has a nice body
who cares about her feelings?
Pretty lies,
perfect lines,
bullshit words,
I'd invest in them.
Pretending you were mine,
I knew I was in for another goodbye.
And all those times I said
"I don't know how to be happy."
you said "I'll teach you." and oh how you taught me to not trust again.
Because people never stay how I pictured them, they stay how I left the last one.
