Just • Physical//Finn Wolfhard

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Lacie's Pov

 I didn't even bother to attend the classes I still had that day. I was feeling like shit. I knew I was kind of annoying sometimes, and a bit bossy, and somehow bitchy. Was I being clingy too?

These thoughts wouldn't leave my mind so I went on a walk.

A few years back I had some problems with self-harm, but it was in the past. Although, with all those words roaming my head, I couldn't help to consider doing it again.

Cutting myself used to take my mind off things and there was this urge inside me telling me to get home as fast as could and get the razor on the bathroom cabinet. So that's what I did. I started to walk faster, anger filling me up.

If I hate myself so much why don't I just try to change? I asked myself.

But I do try. The fact that I always fail just makes the situation worse.

I get home. My dad is with Stephanie on the couch.

"Hi, honey!"

"Hey" I quickly respond, not wanting to draw any attention.

I went to my room and took my pants off. Was I getting myself into this again? But before another thought could come up I was already in the bathroom locking the door.

I opened the cabinet to see my worst enemy.

I sat on the floor, the razor blade in my right hand, and started to cut my skin. The more cuts I did the more I cried. I didn't cry very often but cutting myself would really throw me to the edge. My emotions were finally coming out. I sat there for about twenty minutes. High. My thighs burning and bleeding. I felt empty. I wasn't crying because it hurt or it would leave marks. I was crying because, even if this was an awful method to get me to calm down, it was the only one that worked.

I tried to move on. The week went by and I didn't harm myself after the incident. I

I never told anyone I did this because I was ashamed, I was and am ashamed of myself, my stupid body, and my weak personality. I tried to avoid Finn at school but he was still my neighbor. He was also my only friend so I figured that I would try and talk to him.

I arrived at my house and noticed Finn was leaving his. We looked at each other for what seemed like hours but I lightly shook my head and decided to give him a nod and a small smile.

His face brightened and he showed me that grin I missed so much, I couldn't help but look down and blush.

I entered the house and noticed I was alone so I decided to catch up on American Horror Story. I got myself some snacks and when I came back to the couch I saw a new notification on my phone.

Over Text

Creepy Neighbor: Hey! I've missed you...

Creepy Neighbor: Sorry for being a douchebag and not reaching out to you but I thought you might want some space

Creepy Neighbor: I'm very very sorry please answer or I might go mad

I smiled at all those texts. He was a real jerk but I also overreacted by shutting myself off so I responded.

Finn's Pov

I was at the store buying some groceries since my dad wasn't going to be home on the weekend.

Over text

Lay: I'm sorry for being gone too. I was just kinda sad that's it. We should hang out sometime.

I was so happy I think I kinda yelled since a small old lady looked at me with a face of disbelief.

I quickly answered.

Over text

Me: We should totally hang out.

Me: Does now sound good? Or are you busy?

I was nervous about her response. Maybe she didn't wanna see me but I missed her so fucking much. I knew I liked her and I was missing the physical stuff too obviously but I'm not quite sure if she wanted to keep that going. I mean, after the stupid shit I said...

Over Text

Lay: I'm just watching series and my dad is probably out with Stephanie since it's Friday night, so you're welcome to join me.

Me: I'll be there in fifteen.

I gathered all I needed and left the store. Once I arrived at my house I changed into sweatpants, brushed my teeth, and applied some cologne (just in case). I rushed over to her house and knocked a bit too loudly from the excitement. And then she opened the door. She was wearing a sweatshirt, her hair on a messy ponytail, and a soft smile formed on her lips. I took a good long look at her, analyzing her features but I couldn't help to notice that she looked tired, the smile seemed forced, but it was still her. And she was still in front of me. Smiling. So before she could say a word my arms embraced her waist tightly and I rested my head on her shoulder. She eventually responded by placing her arms around my neck.

"I'm so sorry" I whispered on her neck making her giggle and god, how I've missed her voice.

"I already told you it was fine" She whispered back, caressing the back of my head.

She nodded towards the couch, I followed her and we both sat down.

She clicked the play button and American Horror Story started playing.

"Didn't take you for a horror type of girl"

"Well, you still don't know me very well do you?" She said softly, no harm intended.

I noticed her scooting closer but I pretended I didn't notice. I was nervous and also kinda horny, but I didn't want to ruin anything.

While I was having a thought battle inside my mind, her head rested on my shoulder. She was so calm. I put my hand on her thigh but she immediately flinched so I take it back quickly, not wanting to ruin anything this soon. But before I could put my hand back on my lap she grabbed it, placed it on her thigh again (a little more near the knee than it was before), not letting go of it.

"So... You want to go over my house tomorrow? My dad won't be there, I'll be alone."

"He won't?" She asked turning to me. "Finn, is your dad not showing up again?"

I could see that she was worried but I didn't want her to because I know she would probably tell her dad and make me stay at her house when I was perfectly fine.

"No. He just said he wouldn't be here on the weekend"

She was about to say something when we heard the door opened. We both jumped apart from each other and I could see her turning red.

"Finn! I didn't know you'd be here. How are you?" Lacie's dad said, looking quite happy next to Stephanie.

"Hi Mr. Evans! I'm fine thanks. I was just leaving." I then turned to Lacie "I'll see you tomorrow" I stated and winked, earning an eye roll in return.

"Have a good night Mr. Evans" I said shaking his hand. "Stephanie" I also shook her hand and she smiled at me, eyes narrowed.

Lacie's Pov

He greeted my father and Stephanie and I could see they were enchanted by his charming ways.

"I like him" My dad simply says, making his way to his room.

I think I like him too.