Lapis x Peridot

Twenty Something

Peridot Pov Play Song

I stand up, put my hand out for Lapis to grab,  she takes it. I lead us to our room. I lay on the bed she snuggles up next to me, I lay there with my eyes open staring at the ceiling. "What are you thinking about?" she asks. "Honestly, everything. " I responded, she remained quiet, but I knew she was awake. "Oh how I want to just take a gun and shoot it into a empty field. Then maybe I'll be this blank space will be filled with something." I paused and took a deep breath. "It's like I need someone to make me believe you. I know you love me, you know I love you too, but I know this is going to bite me in the ass. But I think about you leaving me for someone else, even more now. And I don't want to waste your time if you are just going to leave me. These thoughts are stuck in my head, and I only feel comfortable with you,  or my bed or my friends. I don't want you to  go just like mother did, but yet again I touch you and get the feeling that your never leaving. And your never going no where. Your probably not even listening, but my head is just full of thoughts and possibilities. They are stuck in my head. When we first met knew I should help you and be your friend. Hospital or Jasper's Driveway, Ambulance or on the beach. Tell me everything that you been thinking since junior year. I'm about twenty something and we are having a relationship crisis. And I'm talking a lot and I need to shut up. " I grab my note book and start writing, Lapis stayed quiet.

Tell me you want me
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back and you're never leaving
Tell me you want me
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back and you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now I know I'm twenty something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone
I was eighteen when you loved me
And now I know I'm twenty something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

I started thinking about nothing, my phone started vibrating,  I grabbed it, it was do from a random. Looking to fuck.

@Not_Tristan87
Heyyyy Cutie

@PeridotsGem
I have a girlfriend

@Not_Tristan87
That's cool we could, keep this on a low.

@PeridotsGem
No we can't, I am loyal. Not do I like girls like you, you just want, sex and money. she always let me be myself, she don't ever take bread.

@Not_Tristan87
I don't need your money I have my own from modeling.  See
http://Not_Tristan87/photo/124986

@PeridotsGem
She sees things that you don't see
She breathes the air that you don't breathe She bleeds the blood that you don't bleed She looks at me like she loves me

@Not_Tristan87
What? Your confusing me.

@PeridotsGem
It's a no,  keep texting me I'll block you.

I throw my phone to the other side of the bed. I look up at the ceiling I take a deep breath. "At least I know your loyal to me, and you weren't talking a lot, you rarely even talk to me like that anymore. " she said in a weak voice. There was a knock at the door she was about to go and get it but I got up before her and walked down stairs.  I wipe my face off and I open the door. "Hey there bud. " Amethyst said cowardly. "What are you here to apologize? " I said, trying to get my usual voice back. "Actually yes, I want to apologize for -" I push my finger on her lips,  I look out side and yep surely his car is back.  "Every time we this happens is because one of us is gone,  and he's back now.  And you want to make it up." I said annoyed now. "Yeah, weird huh. But I seriously wanna apologize for this. I said i was done holding, and I gave your girl it. I just did all my reasons with ruby, man I really suck at apologies. And I hate doing this but I'm trying to say that I sorry for this." she apologized in her way that I was used to. "You aren't sincere." I responded making her start to panic."Come on, I hate doing this. I really hate making up. But I love you peridot, and I don't know how to do this right but I'm sorry. I don't know whatelsetosaysoimjustgoingtoramblefromnowon-" "Okay, chill out. Its water under the bridge,  you really need to work on apologies. " I said calming her down, she gives me a hug. "Thank you. " She said in my ear.  "Your welcome,  but your breath is kicking. So back up a little bit. " I responded. "Sorry had tacos, and tell Lapis I'm sorry for this. " she replied, moving her hair from in front of her eyes.  "Will do Amethyst, and next time don't be having drugs either than party drugs. " I responded, " Yeah I do need to stop holding. For real this time. " she responded, her phone rung. She looked at the number and said "After this semester, I guess. " and answered the phone, then walked away. I closed the door and went back to Lapis's and I room, she was sitting up against the headboard. "Peridot do you remember when you first saw me?" she questioned me. "Lapis, how could I forget?" I replied.

Cliff hanger a long chapter or multiple chapters telling one story. I'm not depressed just a gay emo.