Hamilton boyfriend scenarios

Seattle

I fell in love in a week. I met him December 3rd and I knew I had to have him the night of December 3rd. As I grew to know more about him I finally put a personality on his body. He was and still is charismatic, funny, nice, honest and the best listener. He's still all I've every wanted and more. I know I love him but there's a problem. He either doesn't want to be with me or can't be with me. I know I shouldn't but I can't help but think of him whenever I  think of a perfect man for me. I've never felt happier then when I was in his car, I never knew the whole fireworks going off in your head or butterflies in your stomach thing was true until we shared that kiss outside of my school in his car. We talked about taking a day trip to Seattle and I still think of it every night when I lay down at night and I even dream about it sometimes. I'm crying as I write this because I know it was all just talk and will never come into fruition.  But I still trick myself into having the false hope of feeling his lips on mine again and feeling that same warm embrace I felt those December nights when he drove me home; and I still dream of a Seattle day trip to the waterfront.