"Yeah I know." I tell Jungkook on the phone.
"Please Sung Mi, let's not fight, it's our anniversary today." Jungkook's voice was raspy on the phone.
"I don't understand it. Why are you being linked to Seulgi?" I asked in frustration.
"If it's IU I'll understand. But hey it's someone famous and you even went to cafe together? How come I am your girlfriend and I don't know about it?!" I enraged.
"Can you atleast listen to me?" He pleads on the phone.
"Okay sure. Let me listen to how many times you've seen each other and oh, why don't you also tell me about the things you've talked about?" I sarcastically said after I rolled my eyes.
"Sung Mi please." He lets out a sigh after.
"You know why I am angry? It's because I'm trending not because we're dating but because everyone calls me a rebound and a third party. Oh, and there's a bonus, the issue came out right when we admitted that we're dating. Nicely done." I whined.
"I.... We've been in this industry for more than years Jungkook, we know how this work. This will create a big impact on my career." My voice starts to become shaky as I speak.
Tears were already running down my cheeks and believe me I really tried to hold it. I brushed my cheek with my thumb, as I hope that he won't hear my sobs.
"I'm so sorry love." He said in a low tone.
"Why were you with her?" I asked him.
"Was it too hard to tell me?"
"Do I not listen to you?"
"Sung Mi-ah..." Jungkook's voice was temperate, his voice was so calm that it makes me cry more.
"Tell me." I whimpered.
"Sung Mi," Somebody called me from behind.
I immediately wiped off the tears from my face before I turned my head. "Yes?"
"Kwon Ji Yong." The staff mouthed as she points outside.
I nodded my head to her before she left.
"Are you cheating?" I asked Jungkook.
"No." He answered.
"Then what?"
"She is my friend."
"Why didn't you tell me about her?" I asked him.
"Because I was scared to lose you."
"Jungkook you're not going to lose me by introducing me to a friend." I told him.
"I wanted to make you feel you are the only girl in my life." He continues.
"I was scared that you'll feel the same way I did when I saw you with Ji Yong sunbae and TOP sunbae."
"What?"
"I felt like I wasn't the only man who cares for you. I feel like I am just one of those men who cares for you. I feel like you don't have to need me because you have them." He explained.
"Jungkook you don't have to compare yourself to them. Ji Yong and TOP is my sunbae, they were both like family to me. They were my friends before I had everything." I explained to him.
"I have spent almost all of my time with them before, they were there when I was happy, sad, angry and when I wanted to give up. They were my mentor who pushed me to fight." I continue.
"And you? You are what I have now Jungkook. You are the man I want to share everything that I've worked hard for. You are that man, you're different from them." I said as I sat on the floor, pulling my knees to myself, locking it with my arms while the tears continue to rage down like streams on my cheek.
"I'm so sorry." Jungkook said.
"It's our anniversary today and...." I couldn't come up with the proper words to say.
I don't want to make Jungkook feel worse about it but, a year had already passed and I didn't know that he was still carrying a grudge over Ji Yong and TOP. He told me before that Ji Yong talked to him to clarify things and that TOP even went to talk to him personally to apologize for everything. It really does break ny heart knowing there is no reason for him to feel that way but he still felt that way.
"Maybe this is what they were saying. Being an idol is a sacrifice. Either your career or something you love so much. You will always and always have to choose and sacrifice. I understand it now." I said as I continue to sob.
"I'm so sorry." I said.
"Sorry." He replied.
