Return To Me

Chapter 5: Alone and yet...not alone

WARNING: sensitive topics including self harm, suicide, abuse, mental illnesses and sexual assault. If you are triggered by any of these things then don't read. I will summarise it in the next chapter for this who don't read it.

As I picked up the shard, I immediately fell into what seemed to be an everlasting darkness. I felt pain shoot through me as I hit what had to be rock bottom, but I was still surrounded by darkness. Standing up, I looked around and saw nothing and decided to walk through the never ending darkness.

I saw a light out of the corner of my eye and I am suddenly 4 years old again. I am standing in my living room in my old house, wearing my denim overall shorts and a white shirt. My hair is in a small side braid and I am wearing my necklace. I look to see Mika on the floor, blood seeping out of his head.

"Hey Ruru, nice to see you again. Even though you only ever know how to run out on people," he says.

" I don't run out on people! Stop lying demon. You know I don't," I retort.

Mika smirks. He catches the bottle about to hit his head. "When dad hit me you watched. You didn't do anything. I tried to protect you when mom hit you," he said.

"I was like 3. I'm sorry. But I tried and got hurt. Besides what do I care what you say. Your not Mika!" I shout.

"Maybe. But you ran out on him. Then when you were bullied in the orphanage he stood up for you. You didn't protect him Hirumi," it says.

I then see that scene. I am sat next to Mika who is bleeding out after being stabbed in the stomach by Ferid. I stare in horror as he looks at me.

"I hate you!" He mumbles And I look shocked. "You ran. You left me here to die. You and Yuu lived. But we all died. And we weren't even avenged yet. What kind of sister are you?" He says.

I don't respond. Next I find myself in the bathroom in mine and Yuu's apartment. I look to see blood outing out of my wrists and voices in my head. They tell me the same thing the demon is; that I failed Mika. I should die. I see You walk into the bathroom.

"WHAT THE HELL! YOU ATTENTION SEEKING WHORE! I BET YOU WANT TO DIE JUST LIKE MIKA JUST SO I'D MOURN YOU HUH! STUPID BITCH! YOU AREN'T MY SISTER!" I look at him with a black expression.

"Won't fall for it demon," I say.

I drop the blade and walk out of the bathroom without a word. Once out the door i find myself in a familiar ally way. In a familiar outfit. My green shirt with denim shorts and high tops. I panic and try to run.

Strong arms grab me from behind and I soon realize what's happening. I cry and screen for help. For my brother. By no one comes. I feel someone rip my shirt. It falls halfway down exposing my bra. The rest happens at sonic speed and soon enough I'm in my bed, in new cloths that Sayuri gave me while in hospital.

" You slut. I bet you paid him to do that. Attention seeking whore," smiles Yuu as he walks out. "Mika would be very disappointed," he says. I keep myself together. But I'm unprepared for what comes next.

Im standing on the chair in the bathroom and I step off. The air to my lungs is cut. I can't breath. I feel myself falling into darkness. Just as I am about to loose conscious l, I fall to the ground. I feel so alone. I look up to see Mika looking mad.

He tells at me for being selfish and stuff. But I ignore him. It's not even him. It's a demon.

"Just give up. Give your power to me! My brother cares for me and would never say that!" I say. It smirks. I suddenly see a black mist surround it.