I'm so broken right now.Alam ko na wala siyang gusto sa'kin okay?Nandoon na tayo.Tapos na yun.Malinaw na sa'kin yun.Tanggap ko na.But why can't I stop liking him?Diba dapat ang feelings na hindi natutumbasan ay itinatapon na lang?Pag ayaw sa'yo ng taong gusto mo, burahin mo na lang siya sa sistema mo.Pati yung nararamdaman mo pawiin mo na rin.Ganun dapat e!Pero bakit ang hirap gawin?Ang daling sabihin pero hindi ko alam kung saan ko sisimulan ang pagtanggal kay Andrew sa sistema ko.Block his number?Erase our chat conversation? Stop thinking him?Been there, done that.Parang dati naman hindi ako ganito.Habang maaga pa, pinutol ko na ang communication namin coz I want to save my heart from a total heartache.Pero bakit parang mas naging grabe ang pagkahulog ko?
The fact that he rejected me is already an enough reason so I can move on with him.Ang tanga ko ba kasi mag-mo-move on ako even in the very first place wala namang kami?Hindi ko na talaga maintindihan ang sarili ko—I mean—gusto ko na siyang kalimutan pero lagi ko namang tinitingnan yung phone ko to check if he has called or texted me.
Hindi ko pa rin maalis sa isip ko yung nakita ko kahapon.I'm walking on the sidewalk, on my way home, when I caught him on the opposite way.May kasama siyang girl.I don't know how to describe her but she's hot and shapely and I'm not.I never felt insecure in my whole life.Ngayon lang.Naka-akbay pa si Andrew sa kaniya na parang proud na proud siya na kasama niya ang pinakamagandang babae sa balat ng lupa.Like duh?Is that his type?Big boobs and big booty?Red lips and dark brow?Iyan na ba talaga ang basehan ng kagandahan ngayon?I pity you people coz you can't see the true essence of beauty.
Boys only fall in love with the looks.Andrew is never an exemption to that.Kaya nga mas nagustuhan niya yung babaeng yun kaysa sa'kin coz' I'm plain boring!I wonder if they already did the nasty—you know—sex.Oh God.I'm being paranoid.I should stop thinking about Andrew and his little pet na grabe kung kumapit.
Donny's spanking my door!Must open it before it breaks!Bye!
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MY SUMMER DIARY (Completed)
RandomMarica had an unexpected encounter with a guy in her Grade Four class.Little did she know that Andrew is bound to be her SUMMER LOVE. Written: April 17 - May 16, 2018
