sad writing for sad days.

simon says

i'm constantly thinking on what
it is that i did to deserve you.
think about that sentence.
read it.
at first glance it seems i'm merely
talking about how happy i am
to have someone like i do.
i have only realised the true
meaning after
reading a book.
but what am i talking about?
what is this?
if i told you,
everyone would know.
and they would destroy it.
i want to say what it is
i want to say.
i want to do it so bad.
i'm not allowed to.
allowed to, what?
allowed to tell. not until,
as the game goes,
simon says.