Your forever is all that I need (Kellin Quinn - Sleeping with Sirens) ON HOLD.

Chapter 2 - You're the closest to heaven that Ill ever be.

I ran into the street by the tour bus, collapsing to the ground and just crying my heart out. What had I got myself into? I should've just declined the assistant job and stayed at home. But no, I had to be so big of myself and do this. I needed Kellin so bad, but he had lost my trust and broken my heart. 

I pulled myself up and unlocked the tour bus, climbing in and locking it again. I returned to my spot on the sofa as I had no clue which was my bunk, and curled up in a ball and cried myself to sleep in the pitched black. 

When I woke up, the light was on and the guys were sitting about, chatting, I could hear someone in the shower and the bus was moving, I had no clue where we were going though. 

I sat up and looked around, I was also freezing cold.

'You failed at your job, Sage, tut tut' Justin joked.

'Sorry, I was so tired' I lied, even though I had been tired, but the real reason I had disapeared was because I couldnt face Kellin singing the song he wrote for me, when we werent even together anymore.

'Thats cool, doesnt matter anyway' Kellin shrugged, a tear pricked my eye and I blinked hard and got up.

'Which is my bunk?' I said.

'The last one on the bottom left' Jesse said, playing the acoustic guitar, the song Iris.

'Thanks, but why are you practising now? Didnt you just finish?' I frowned.

'Yeah, but we're doing a cover of the song Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls' Jesse smiled at me.

Kellin began singing, he knew this was one of my favourite songs, I just wanted to disappear and go home, this just wasnt my day. 

*** JESSE'S POV ***

I could tell Sage was broken, I saw her run off, I saw her cry in the street, I saw it all. And it was all cause this selfish ignorant fucker infront of me. Sage walked into the bunk part, with her case, sorting things out, like the little OCD girl she is, Kellin began to sing. 

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be  
And I don't want to go home right now

Kellin stared at Sage as he sang, he looked broken as well. This would be an interesting week.

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken 
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken 
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken 
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken 
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Kellin looked down, then at me and smiled. I knew he was upset and all he wanted was Sage, but he ruined his chances with her. 

*** SAGE'S POV ***

I curled in my bed as I heard Kellin finishing the song. I do know who you are, and I love you so much and I miss you more than anything, I whispered to myself.

I knew it was still daylight but I just wanted to be in the dark and be alone. And besides, Gabe was asleep as well.

When I woke up it was dark and midnight, the bus was parked up at a bus coffee shop place thing, that was bound to be closed the now, but the bus was empty anyway. 

I walked outside and notice all the guys sitting on the grass next to the bus, in a circle, smoking and drinking, laughing and having fun, so I thought I'd go and join them.

'She awakes!!' Justin yelled.

'And like a vampire, Ill be up all night' I grinned sitting down between Jack and Jesse.

Jack offered me the bottle of vodka and I took it, taking a massive glug, it burned my throat and brought a tear to my eye, but in the moonlight no one would tell.

'You dont drink though, Sage' Kellin frowned.

'I know' I said taking another forceful glug, 'but YOLO'

'Please dont ever say that again' Jesse laughed.

'YOLO' I whispered in his ear and then smiling cutely, I couldnt help but sense Kellins eyes on me.

'Show tomorrow  night' Jack smiled, taking some vodka 'Be awake yeah?'

'Duh, sorry about today guys though' I blushed.

'Its fine! But we do signings tomorrow and its gonna be crazy so we need all the help you can give' Justin smiled.

'Cant wait' I grinned.

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A/N : This is just a boring little filler hehe. Hope you liked, sorry its taken ages, been planning out chapter 3 waaaaaaay too much LOL.