Your forever is all that I need (Kellin Quinn - Sleeping with Sirens) ON HOLD.

Chapter 5 - The truth.

I woke up from my nap after about 15 minutes unfortunately, I just felt so bad, maybe I was being stupid and I had just gotten some illness or fever from being out in the cold all night, yeah that was it. I hoped.

I pulled myself out of bed, thank God they were concertless tonight, I was way too ill to work. I walked into the living room, it was just Jack and Jesse sitting down chatting, no idea where the others were, I wasnt even gonna ask.

'Sage you look like death' Jack said.

'I feel like it too' I said collapsing on the couch.

'Oh you poor thing' Jesse laughed.

'So hows things with Kellin?' Jack asked.

'Do you even have to ask?' I scoffed, 'shit, as per usual, he hates me, its obvious, we're both moving on'

'Moving on?' Jesse frowned, him and Jack just looked at each other frowning and scoffing, 'Kellin, moving on? You're joking right?'

'Nope, why would I?'

'Well, thats not happening, hes still completely, hopelessly in love with you, you fool'  Jack laughed.

'Then why wont he tell me?' I asked.

'Cause hes afraid' Jesse said.

I sighed, he didnt have to be afraid. I loved him too, I missed him like hell, and I really needed to throw up !

I ran to the bathroom, emptying all of my insides and then cleaning my teeth and mouth, then slumped back down on the couch, groaning and whining for 15 minutes.

'Sage, I want to buy you a present' Jack declared.

'And what would that present be?' I sighed.

'A pregnancy test' he smirked.

I almost choked on my own breath, 'what?!' I snapped.

'No offence but its kinda obvious' Jesse laughed.

'Whatever, Ill prove you all wrong' I sighed.

Jack sountered off out to the pharmacist, I slightly didnt believe he would get one, but this was Jack we were talking about.

A few moments later Kelln, Justin and Gabe walked in, all shirtless, apparently they were playing ball outside, I hadnt even noticed. Kellin didnt even look at me, which was annoying, I really wanted to believe he loved me, but he was making it impossible.

 'Wheres Jack?' Gabe asked.

'He went out' I sighed.

'You look really ill, Sage' Justin frowned, 'are you okay?'

'Just a bit sick, probably a flu though' I sighed, 'not just me or is it super cold in here?'

They all looked at each other, 'yep shes ill' Gabe sighed, getting a blanket and putting it on me.

Kellin put a shirt on and sat beside me, I looked down, trying not to cry, this was getting harder and harder. I didnt know if I could carry this on, and I'd heard they had more concerts after this week, so more work. 

Jack took his time, eventually coming home, when we were in private he gave me his 'present'. I was convinced I wasnt pregnant, but what if I was ?

I went into the bathroom and took the test, waited 3 minutes, which decided to take forever, and then I had just a rush of thoughts. I, Sage, pregnant? No fucking way. It couldnt happen. I was just this red haired girl named after a green herb, it was a male name, what was my mother thinking, I dont know. I wasnt exactly special. 

I looked at the test and got the shock of my life,  positive.

I just stared at it, no way. This couldnt be real. I couldnt actually be carrying a baby, and Kellins, especially when he hated, everything was such a mess.

I poked my head out of the bathroom door, 'Jack, can you come in here in a sec?' I said. Everyone just frowned at me while Jack awkwardly walked in.

He looked at it and even he looked shocked, his jaw hit the floor, then looked at me and hugged me, 'congratulations' he whispered, 'we're all here for you, and Kellin will see sense, I promise'

'I hope so, or else Im fucked' I whispered back.

I chucked the test in the bin, and walked out, trying to act normal, as if I hadnt just found out I was carrying a baby.

'What have you 2 been doing?' Justin winked.

'Nothing' I laughed, then I felt a squirm of nausea so I ran back in to throw up.

'Lovely' I heard Gabe say.

A few hours later while everyone went out to a party, I stayed home, I felt like shit and I wasnt really up for watching a bunch of girls grind up against Kellin, I still loved him to absolute pieces, and everyday was getting harder.

It was midnight and I heard the door open, it was early for them lot coming home, but then I realised it was just one person, Kellin.

'How come you're back so early?' I asked.

'Im not, the toilets there are disgusting' he said, not even looking at me, heading to the toilet.

A few moments later he returned, he walked into the living room and just stared at me, looking stunned.

'What?' I said, 'you're creeping me out'

'Is there something you might have forgotten to tell me?' he said.

I gulped, shit, he knows, 'what?' I said, playing dumb.

'You're pregnant?' he said.

I looked down, 'Erm... yeah'

'Oh my fucking God' he said, sitting down, head in his hands.

'What do we do?' I said, biting my lip.

'I dont agree with abortion' he said, looking at me.

'Me neither' I said, 'so we're keeping it then?'

He nodded, staring into my eyes. Where we really gonna do this?