Coming To Terms

Jealousy

Teri-

The idea of making love to Sherri tonight plagued my mind, it was the one thing that prevented me from falling asleep. Having her here in my home so close to me after we professed our feelings for each other, it felt like I was a drug addict and she was the drug. The other thing that plagued my mind this evening was that she returned home to him, which is the other reason I couldn't seem to get any sleep. On more than one occasion Sherri told me the effect that alcohol had on here libido, it makes her horny. I know she said she was fine, that was the only reason I didn't object to her driving home, but I still couldn't help but , huh. Deciding to send her a text to make sure she made it home, well that's the excuse I plan on using, knowing if she hadn't made it home, Kamar would have called, I wanted to make sure she wasn't having sex with him. I have the thought in my mind that if she answers my text then she's not, but if she doesn't then she is. Waiting patiently for the reply after I pressed send, a minute goes by, when I come to the conclusion that she is, before I hear a text message coming through. 

S- Hey T, sorry I didn't call or text when I made it home.

T- It's alright, just wanted to know you were safe.

S- Yes I'm good, how are you?

T-I'm good too. I miss you.

S- Really, I miss you too

T-What are you doing?

S- Trying to put Michael to sleep

T- Oh, feeling relieved that she's not with Kamar.

S- Yeah he's being a little fussy tonight.

Teri- Sorry love

S- It's okay, it comes with the territory right?

Teri-Right, well I'll leave you to it.

S- Okay T, good night.

T-Good night

Teri-

Knowing that she was with one of the boys put my mind at ease, but what would happen once she puts him to sleep, is Kamar waiting up for her. Oh great Teri, way to go, something else that's going to keep you awake wondering. Making my way downstairs to watch a little television to keep my mind occupied, I can still smell her scent on the couch where we were sitting earlier, watching movies together. I don't know how I am going to get any sleep tonight.

Sherri-

MIchael get to sleep okay baby, Kamar asks, when I come back into our bedroom. Yeah, I said. Good, he says.  Come on to bed, he said. Getting into bed, turning my lamp off, ready to get some much needed sleep when I feel his hot breath against my neck and then a kiss. Kamar not tonight, I'm not in the mood, I said. Sherri you're never in the mood anymore, what's going on, I don't turn you on anymore, I asked. It's not that, I am just tired okay, I just had a hard time putting MIchael to sleep, I said. Whatever Sherri, I'm going to sleep in the guestroom, he said slamming the door behind him and before you know it I hear both the boys crying. Shit! I get up to prepare myself to not get any sleep tonight.