So that's why I shot myself in the head.
I purposely shot it in the wrong place so that maybe I could get your attention again. That's all i wanted, your attention. Not to die. Now my plan seems really dumb but you're talking to me more often so that makes me happy. Even if i can't remember what was on Hannah Baker's tapes. Even if I am now unable to help Jessica with her Bruce situation. At least i got your attention again.
You paying attention to me makes me feel a certain way. Like I actually matter to someone. And that someone would care if I wasn't here anymore. There's a lot of people who don't really seem like they would care.
You do. You care.
Or at least, I think you do.
-alex
