warning: homophobia, and mentions of self harm. stay safe guys <3
btw i'm literally gay and i self harm so this made me upset while writing it
i am unsure of what i expected you to say.
i wished you would have said you loved me,
but wishes never come true for guys like me.
you said that the girl, her name being Katie, was your soulmate.
you said you were in love with her.
she was your everything.
although, that wasn't even the most heartbreaking part of all of this. no, you told me that you had been in love with me, but you fell out of love with me.
i hesitantly asked you why you never told me.
that was a huge mistake on my part.
you started laughing and told he you were joking. that you could never be gay. you said that gay people were disgusting and disgraceful.
i was, shocked to say the least. i thought by now, in 2018, that most people weren't homophobic. or at least tolerant of the lgbtq+ community. turns out i was wrong.
you spat other offensive slurs with your voice. the voice i loved so much.
the voice i still love.
i still love every single part of you.
and i can't let you go.
i might cut a little
or a lot.
i'll write later.
-alex
